Method I think I’ve found my method!

[Acopia]

So, I've been on here a while & have fluctuating levels of suicidality (if that's the word?)

I've become jealous over time of others who've found their perfect method; well finally.. I think I've found mine.

I'm going to go with the Amitriptyline cocktail. It's going to take me a while to stockpile what I need - which is good because I'm in no hurry! I get on prescription 20mg Ami per day, That's 560mg a month. I currently have just over a gram stockpiled, so by my reckoning it'll take me about a year to build my stock up to the 6g I need. (Mainly because I can't hoard them all, I do actually need to take them, but I'll lower my dose or do alternate days or something).

Honestly, having found the perfect method that I feel is doable for me is such a relief! I already feel like a weight has been lifted. I have something to work towards now.

Like I say, I have time, and I need a couple of other components to ensure I'm successful.. but here begins the end.

Peace & love guys,
-Acopia

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Have you looked up if people have od on this? Does cocktail mean you will mix it with something else?

I don't feel like the med does much in general like day to day.

 

[Acopia]

Amitriptyline is one of the more dangerous antidepressants when taken in overdose - which is why I'm only allowed a baby dose

I'm still researching more info, but the gist is:
Metoclopramide (or other anti-emetic)
6g of Amitriptyline + 300mg of Midazolam + 300mg Diazepam.

It seems that the benzo's knock you out whilst the Amitriptyline works its magic on the heart.. so the idea is that it will be peaceful, just like falling asleep. The slight drawback is that it takes a while for death to occur, but I don't think that will cause me too much of an issue.
I can work around that. I have Zopiclone that I can use to help me drift off quicker, y'know, there's things I can do.

I was beginning to lose hope as every method didn't appeal to me for one reason or another, but this one feels right.
Yeyy
-A