I think it's time to go..

[ForestLove]

I'm sobbing away right now..

After coming back from last failed attempt, my family has been showing love and care for me for the past weeks.
Still, I don't feel happy..

I thought of CTB tonight when my husband is asleep.

I feel very guilty for letting him down and I'm having pain in my heart since last year..i feel hopeless, helpless and worthless. I think it's time to go..its best for him and me.

 

[color_me_gone]

I am sorry for all your pain.
I know how much depression sucks.
I wish I could somehow help.
I sincerely hope you can find the peace you need.
<<<Hugs>>>

 

[Crazy I]

I hope you all the best, and i hope you found peace wherever you are.

 

[Shinji]

It is all different for us but we all understand the feeling. I hope all the best to you and to the peace you need.

 

[Dead Meat]

I wish all the best to you and may you find the peace you richly deserve.

 

[Ch92921]

Wherever you go I hope you may find peace

 

[throwaway123]

No, you don't think it's time to go. You know when the time has come to leave.

 

[NotWorthLiving]

I'm sorry you feel this way. I do wish you luck though and hope you find the peace you deserve. If there is anything I can do please let me know. Hugs

 

[Moony21]

I can feel your pain. I'm so sorry you feel this way. I wish you peace.

 

[21Neberg]

No matter how much love your family shows, you'll still want to die. Sending strength in these hard times, stay strong.

 

[SiArc]

*hugs* I can empathize and wish you the ability to find your 0eace either her or the next realm. I am so sorry for your pain.

 

[Sanguinius]

Save travels & all the best.

 

[bigj75]

Do what you want!

 

[JOT]

Forestlove have you tried talking to your loved ones since your last attempt? Like really talked to them with complete honesty?

If you have and you still feel hopeless then I wish you a peaceful journey x

 

[ForestLove]

Forestlove have you tried talking to your loved ones since your last attempt? Like really talked to them with complete honesty?

If you have and you still feel hopeless then I wish you a peaceful journey x

I only had a honest convo with my husband while my parents and siblings didn't ask me anything on why I was trying to kms. My mum jus told me to live one day at a time and don't think too much. My husband was in a dilemma knowing I am suicidal and don't know what to do with me. He can't be "encouraging" me to CTB nor could he stop me from it.

Still, everyday I'm feeling depressed and suicidal. It can never go away. My heart/chest area is always in pain when I think of it.

Seems my fate is sealed and inevitable.

 

[ForestLove]

No, you don't think it's time to go. You know when the time has come to leave.

When will i know the time has come to leave?

I nearly died 1 year ago. I should have been dead to save all the innocent ones from getting hurt.

 

[throwaway123]

When will i know the time has come to leave?

I nearly died 1 year ago. I should have been dead to save all the innocent ones from getting hurt.

You will feel it. If you were truly ready to go you wouldn't be here. It is going to happen someday. What day that is is hard to say. It might be tomorrow or next year.