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alienatedmom9999
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- Jun 24, 2021
- 18
So, I've said this a couple times (but I'm also new, so this is only my third or fourth post)—I have to wait for my dog to die, or for his quality of life to deteriorate so much that it becomes time for me to help him cross the rainbow bridge before I can ctb. Today has been a really shitty day, and I really want this torture called life to just end already. A (small) part of me is wishing he will go ahead and die, so I can end things. I know I'm a shitty person for feeling that way. I would never do anything to hasten his end; in fact, six months ago I made sure he got a very expensive surgery because he had a condition that would have ended his life from kidney failure (a horrible way to die). I don't regret this decision for a minute, but I'm SO ready to just end things already…