So my ex broke up with me for the second time in late January/early February 2026, it hurt like hell tbh. She even began dating someone in less than a week following the breakup.
As many know, healing isn't linear. Sometimes, certain things just click and you're like, wow, that was easier. That's what this felt like.
She's been slowly migrating her stuff out (I don't like being confrontational, though I should put my foot down and force her to get her stuff out. I just don't like sounding mean), and she came by today, grabbed two things to sell for money.
I talked to her on the phone while she was over here, we discussed a few things, like the new season of Invincible.
I eventually asked her about a Christmas gift she got me, a concert ticket to Three Days Grace. I was asking her if she would still be fine giving me the tickets. She said "I don't know," and i can't lie, i was a little butthurt by that. Way to give a gift and then take it back.
Anyways, she came by and grabbed the stuff, and for the first time, I didn't feel "hurt" or "desire" looking at her. I saw a person who hurt me, but I've healed from. That feeling cannot be explained.
I know healing isn't linear and this could change but for the first time, I don't feel like I "need" her or even really "want" her. It could even change tomorrow but I'll hope it doesn't. Maybe this is even spurred by me being butthurt over the tickets, but I'm uncertain.
She also proposed coming by on Thursday morning for a different reason but I had no problems shooting it down because it conflicted with my classes and obligations. I've literally never been able to do that yet. I usually crumble and alter my schedule. Not this time.
I just had to share this somewhere. I want this feeling to be something I can look back on if I feel differently just as proof that I can feel like this.
As many know, healing isn't linear. Sometimes, certain things just click and you're like, wow, that was easier. That's what this felt like.
She's been slowly migrating her stuff out (I don't like being confrontational, though I should put my foot down and force her to get her stuff out. I just don't like sounding mean), and she came by today, grabbed two things to sell for money.
I talked to her on the phone while she was over here, we discussed a few things, like the new season of Invincible.
I eventually asked her about a Christmas gift she got me, a concert ticket to Three Days Grace. I was asking her if she would still be fine giving me the tickets. She said "I don't know," and i can't lie, i was a little butthurt by that. Way to give a gift and then take it back.
Anyways, she came by and grabbed the stuff, and for the first time, I didn't feel "hurt" or "desire" looking at her. I saw a person who hurt me, but I've healed from. That feeling cannot be explained.
I know healing isn't linear and this could change but for the first time, I don't feel like I "need" her or even really "want" her. It could even change tomorrow but I'll hope it doesn't. Maybe this is even spurred by me being butthurt over the tickets, but I'm uncertain.
She also proposed coming by on Thursday morning for a different reason but I had no problems shooting it down because it conflicted with my classes and obligations. I've literally never been able to do that yet. I usually crumble and alter my schedule. Not this time.
I just had to share this somewhere. I want this feeling to be something I can look back on if I feel differently just as proof that I can feel like this.
