I think I’m a coward

[Liebestod]

I don't know if I'll ever be able to commit suicide. The only thing I'm grateful for at the moment is that I'll be dead one day. But I know how I can do it, it's just a matter of if I can do it. I think I've accepted that I'm a coward and that I can't do it. Maybe things will change, maybe not. I don't know. I said if things don't get better by a certain time then I'll do it but I don't know if I really would. Only time will tell whether I do it or just die of natural causes. I'll probably stop using this forum as there's no point since I'm too much of a coward to do it anyway. If I don't ever post again then this is why. Goodbye.

 

[Shiitake]

idk i used to think i was a coward, and wounded up just living long enough to appreciate life.
i guess you get used to the "low level"

 

[Matchaaa]

I'm sorry you had this feeling.
you are not coward, It is completely normal to hesitate and think carefully about the major and irreversible life decisions.
whatever decision you make,I hope you find peace and comfort.<3