I think I’ll drown myself soon.

[JustABug]

To be quite frank, I'm getting desperate. I understand drowning is a horrible way to go… however this doesn't bother me. If i'm going, i'm going. And with drowning, I'd make it so I couldn't physically fight to stay alive. Has anyone thought of drowning recently? I think I need that adrenaline when I ctb. Everything is so tiring-not to be pessimistic. A good fight before I depart would do me good. The only problem is where and when. This is how my ctb plans usually fall flat.

 

[tinyghost]

ive been wanting to jump from a bridge into water. theres a chance of drowning, if the impact doesnt do the job. it's honestly the scariest part, but im trying to come to terms with it. i like that i would no longer be able to save myself. it definitely isnt something id recommend to someone else, but i understand being desperate.

 

[JustABug]

ive been wanting to jump from a bridge into water. theres a chance of drowning, if the impact doesnt do the job. it's honestly the scariest part, but im trying to come to terms with it. i like that i would no longer be able to save myself. it definitely isnt something id recommend to someone else, but i understand being desperate.

Yeah, I get that! It's almost like ripping off a bandaid. I would like that.

 

[hi-okbye]

yes, i've actually been pretty fond of the idea of ctb'ing in water. drowning is my preferred way to go, except i want to be unconscious while doing it. i don't really want to feel it, just go in, pass out, and never wake up in this world again. I love water, i find it so peaceful and calming. so if i can, it just feels right to die there.
wishing you much luck, is there anything you plan to do to make sure you end up drowning?

 

[hellispink]

I had been there before too. When i was most desperate i would think about going to a lake rent a boat and go to the middle myself and then throw myself in the deepest part

 

[evrchanging]

i've thought of drowning since i was 15. if i do go i think that's the way i'll do it. i hear it stings really bad for a minute and then there's a calming feeling of peace and being able to "breathe" before you pass. it's not for everyone and i think that if you do plan on it, you should do everything that you love the day before/day of. maybe it'll change your mind, maybe you'll be reminded of what you'll be missing out on. much love

 

[JustABug]

yes, i've actually been pretty fond of the idea of ctb'ing in water. drowning is my preferred way to go, except i want to be unconscious while doing it. i don't really want to feel it, just go in, pass out, and never wake up in this world again. I love water, i find it so peaceful and calming. so if i can, it just feels right to die there.
wishing you much luck, is there anything you plan to do to make sure you end up drowning?

We have rough waters and cliffs where I am. I would end up drowning or getting crushed-which I don't mind! I'd also be pretty intoxicated to help with any fear! Also water is so peaceful, I agree :)

 

[tourniquetbunny]

Drowning has been a personal fear of mine, so it's not one I'd ever recommend however I do like your reasoning, that one final rush before CTB does sound... Nice?
Whatever you decide, I hope you find peace

 

[FuneralCry]

I envy those who manage to succeed in such a way, I often think about drowning but it sounds unbearable to try and go through with, I wish existence came with an permanent offswitch, it's cruel how we cannot just easily die in peace. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[hi-okbye]

We have rough waters and cliffs where I am. I would end up drowning or getting crushed-which I don't mind! I'd also be pretty intoxicated to help with any fear! Also water is so peaceful, I agree :)

that's cool! i wish you much luck on your journey.
i also have rough waters but it really depends, and i don't want to rely on that since i'm a pretty good swimmer, i've saved other people from drowning in the past (in pretty rough currents because we were getting pulled), so i feel like i would probably be able to save myself. good luck though! I've found intoxication makes it pretty hard to swim, you doing the motions as best as you can... but it's just not working. i guess that's a plus though. good luck! also love your username :)

 

[JustABug]

that's cool! i wish you much luck on your journey.
i also have rough waters but it really depends, and i don't want to rely on that since i'm a pretty good swimmer, i've saved other people from drowning in the past (in pretty rough currents because we were getting pulled), so i feel like i would probably be able to save myself. good luck though! I've found intoxication makes it pretty hard to swim, you doing the motions as best as you can... but it's just not working. i guess that's a plus though. good luck! also love your username :)

Thank you so much you're so sweet! Also that's cool that you've saved people before! Maybe you were a mermaid in your past life lolol

 

[The Schizoid]

Nah don't try to drown, awful way to do.

 

[cemetorium]

I've never attempted via drowning, but I've gone to the ocean (near where I live) with the intention of drowning myself a few times. Just never gone through with it.

Sometimes I still consider it as a method, I've thought about getting blackout drunk beforehand to (potentially) make it easier.

 

[yeahokbuddyboy]

Drowning was the first way I considered because the only other ways I could think of were drugs OD, (which I can't get) jumping (no buildings tall enough near me) or hanging, which I thought too painful. Thankfully I got SN but in some ways I'm scared that will be more difficult than drowning… obviously less painful, but I feel like it might be scarier to sit still and feel myself fading, and not try to get help at the last minute.

 

[Intoxicated]

Nah don't try to drown, awful way to do.

Why do you think so? Have you tried to drown?

 

[TimetoGo!]

To be quite frank, I'm getting desperate. I understand drowning is a horrible way to go… however this doesn't bother me. If i'm going, i'm going. And with drowning, I'd make it so I couldn't physically fight to stay alive. Has anyone thought of drowning recently? I think I need that adrenaline when I ctb. Everything is so tiring-not to be pessimistic. A good fight before I depart would do me good. The only problem is where and when. This is how my ctb plans usually fall flat.

It is my number 1 method and will definitely happen soon. No choice left.

My warm hot tub, a load sleeping pills, half a litre of vodka, and weights to hold me down once I have lost consciousness. Praying it goes well.