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spiritflowerchan

spiritflowerchan

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May 22, 2024
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Things haven't really gotten better. I'm on meds and in therapy but it seems everything is just pointless. Realized that if I keep living I won't get anything out of it. I have come to the point where I know it wouldn't matter if I'm dead or not, no one is going to give a fuck anyway except my mom. The only things I want are not obtainable in this life so I'm just gonna say fuck it and hope I wake up in heaven where I get to do shit or reincarnate into a more stable body

I'm planning to do a game. I'm gonna bring a shit ton of pills to a quiet basketball court and down each bottle until

1. Someone finds me
2. I vomit everything out (which I'm going to assume is going to be the case)
3. I pass out and wake up in the hospital (which also might be the case)
4. I somehow actually CTB. (Which is probably not going to be the case)

I know CTB through ODing is probably not going to kill me but it's all I have.

If I happen to vomit I might just walk to the nearby station and jump in front of a train
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you are searching for.
 
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Thisisnotaname

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Aug 27, 2024
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You prolly finish in a psych ward for that, be aware of this.
 
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Edu Ardanuy

Edu Ardanuy

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Dec 3, 2024
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Things haven't really gotten better. I'm on meds and in therapy but it seems everything is just pointless. Realized that if I keep living I won't get anything out of it. I have come to the point where I know it wouldn't matter if I'm dead or not, no one is going to give a fuck anyway except my mom. The only things I want are not obtainable in this life so I'm just gonna say fuck it and hope I wake up in heaven where I get to do shit or reincarnate into a more stable body

I'm planning to do a game. I'm gonna bring a shit ton of pills to a quiet basketball court and down each bottle until

1. Someone finds me
2. I vomit everything out (which I'm going to assume is going to be the case)
3. I pass out and wake up in the hospital (which also might be the case)
4. I somehow actually CTB. (Which is probably not going to be the case)

I know CTB through ODing is probably not going to kill me but it's all I have.

If I happen to vomit I might just walk to the nearby station and jump in front of a train
As someone just pointed it out, you will probably finish in a psych ward for that. I'm so sorry you come to this point.
 
SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,813
Best wishes, although unless you pass out and choke on your own vomit this seems more likely to, at worst, lead to potential organ damage and psychiatric evaluation.
 
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SmilingNoMore

SmilingNoMore

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Nov 25, 2024
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All the best to you, may the result you achieve bring what you intend to achieve :hug:
 

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