struggles_inc
life is a highway and i wanna wreck my car
- Jun 24, 2023
- 445
I know. Not a place for me to talk about it. But…
I've quit drinking since last year. There has been a one-time relapse I instantly regretted the next morning because my body isn't accustomed to alcohol anymore.
I think I'm quitting smoking now. Doing it less and less.
I've been considering this a lot. What I want in life, what brings me joy. If someone knows me on this website, they might remember I run a business and try to maintain appearances. But my heart only warms up when I think about being a parent.
I think I want to become a better version of myself so that I will be able to love my child unconditionally. And I will need to better my mental health too, because there won't be any ways out once someone becomes fully dependent on me. Even though I already feel that with my company and my aging family.
I'll try and do my best to become worthy of being a parent. I really hope I can.
I don't know if that's morally repulsive on my side or not. Not sure if I… invite judgement.
I've quit drinking since last year. There has been a one-time relapse I instantly regretted the next morning because my body isn't accustomed to alcohol anymore.
I think I'm quitting smoking now. Doing it less and less.
I've been considering this a lot. What I want in life, what brings me joy. If someone knows me on this website, they might remember I run a business and try to maintain appearances. But my heart only warms up when I think about being a parent.
I think I want to become a better version of myself so that I will be able to love my child unconditionally. And I will need to better my mental health too, because there won't be any ways out once someone becomes fully dependent on me. Even though I already feel that with my company and my aging family.
I'll try and do my best to become worthy of being a parent. I really hope I can.
I don't know if that's morally repulsive on my side or not. Not sure if I… invite judgement.