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mistymoo
Im going to be apart of the 27 club
- May 30, 2024
- 107
There's a family holiday coming up that I've been holding out for, my last hurray if you will.
Everyone else just gave the go ahead to allowing an incredibly unstable and violent member to this trip. This individual has left bruises and cuts all over me more times than I can count. The worst part tho was every god damn fucking day they would call me awful names (cunt, whore, bitch, reta**, worthless, psycho, slut, etc.) They sent me into a depressive episode that I've never bounce back from. I'm fucking terrified and refuse to be anywhere near them anymore.
The rest of my family will try to push me to go but unless they physically make me then I'll stay behind. I'll have the whole house to myself and I have my method ready to go. Being found out and 'saved' is what's been stopping me.
I'm sad to miss out on this trip but I think this is the universes way of giving me a perfect out. The fomo is strong but the relief of knowing I won't have to feel anything anymore is stronger
Everyone else just gave the go ahead to allowing an incredibly unstable and violent member to this trip. This individual has left bruises and cuts all over me more times than I can count. The worst part tho was every god damn fucking day they would call me awful names (cunt, whore, bitch, reta**, worthless, psycho, slut, etc.) They sent me into a depressive episode that I've never bounce back from. I'm fucking terrified and refuse to be anywhere near them anymore.
The rest of my family will try to push me to go but unless they physically make me then I'll stay behind. I'll have the whole house to myself and I have my method ready to go. Being found out and 'saved' is what's been stopping me.
I'm sad to miss out on this trip but I think this is the universes way of giving me a perfect out. The fomo is strong but the relief of knowing I won't have to feel anything anymore is stronger