Help I think I lost it

[burdensito]

Recently I have been leaning less and less into suicidal thoughts, even though I feel a deep despise for life. I started to feel pity for myself, something I have never felt before. Is there someone here that feels or have felt the same?

 

[Adûnâi]

I seem to be relatively fine if not put under pressure. Pressure would require inspiration to overcome.