I think I have brain damage

[MewtwoIsAlive]

Hey people,
In the last year im feeling like my body is getting worse and worse because of my depression and low mood.
The biggest effect comes to my memory, its bad, and it becomes just worse, like for real, forggeting thing after few seconds or minutes.
Second is my coordination, cant concentrate and think deeply at the same time.
Also my vision (but thats also cause im spending a lot of time infront of my PC).
Apart from that I have a lot of mental problems like low mood most of the time, MDD aswell as PDD, Brain fog/Fybromyalgia , Dissociation and much more
I just dont have any real friends, im isolating myself, im feeling my body is super heavy and sometimes i just cant move myself it feels so hard to do...

Anyone else had similar symptoms or feeling?
Anyone maybe can explain me more whats going on in my body? is this a damage?

 

[Poptart]

Have you seen a doctor? You might need a neurologist or an MRI done just to make sure everything is structurally normal.

 

[esse_est_percipi]

Hey people,
In the last year im feeling like my body is getting worse and worse because of my depression and low mood.
The biggest effect comes to my memory, its bad, and it becomes just worse, like for real, forggeting thing after few seconds or minutes.
Second is my coordination, cant concentrate and think deeply at the same time.
Also my vision (but thats also cause im spending a lot of time infront of my PC).
Apart from that I have a lot of mental problems like low mood most of the time, MDD aswell as PDD, Brain fog/Fybromyalgia , Dissociation and much more
I just dont have any real friends, im isolating myself, im feeling my body is super heavy and sometimes i just cant move myself it feels so hard to do...

Anyone else had similar symptoms or feeling?
Anyone maybe can explain me more whats going on in my body? is this a damage?

Difficult to say. I would say get it checked by a neurologist just to make sure.
But based on your post, I wouldn't say brain damage as such, unless you had a head injury at some point. This is speculation, but I would say that the depression is somehow affecting the neurochemistry and synaptic connectivity of your brain, causing the memory problems, brain fog, pain, heaviness in body etc. Depression definitely affects cognitive functioning, and can also cause neuropathic symptoms.
So all of these symptoms can be reversed with correct treatment (I don't necessarily mean medication), but get a scan just to make sure everything is ok.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Hey, I'm in a similar situation. I have chronic pain and my mind/brain changed since that. I'm not physically and mentally the same. With all these suicidal thoughts everyday and depression it's really hard to concentrate sometimes I just want to kill myself and end all this. It's like my body is broken and my mind is asking me just to die because I can't function properly anymore. I became so self destructive. Drink a lot of alcohol, coffee, sleep less than normal. My life is fucked up.

 

[ALittleBurden]

Been there and I'm afraid my brain is trashed too. I've had depression for years and I quickly started asking myself the same question and I'm confident to say it is a valid concern. Do your best to recall your functioning in the past and compare to what's happening now. If you didn't have memory and coordination issues before, it is alarming.

I'm no specialist, and I'm not diagnosed, but I've just been trying to answer the "what is wrong with me?" question for a long time. If any of this is bs - please correct me.
Depression causes serious chemical imbalance in brain, which in a long run, might cause permanent damage.
I personally also have heart issues and low blood pressure, which combined with laying in bed for most of the time and having no will to live, is a good recipe for a mild stroke - which I may have confused with being psychotic/delusional/dissociative in the past (idk what's the possibility of that, but I am concerned by that, and maybe it's something you want to look out for).

I hope you'll be alright. Stay strong and take care.

 

[EmbraceOfTheVoid]

What you're experiencing is normal within the context of the freeze response and disassociation. I have the same problems that you do.

Van der Hart et al. (2006), as did Janet (1893/1901/1977) and Myers (1940) before them, differentiate between positive and negative symptoms of dissociation. Negative symptoms of dissociation are generally held to refer to losses of function, such as memory (i.e., amnesia), higher cortical functions, loss of feeling, loss of motor control, as well as loss of somatosensory perceptions, for example, numbness. Positive symptoms may include intrusive traumatic memories, flashbacks, intrusive voices, as well as intentions, emotions, cognitions, and behaviors, including complex patterns such as reenactments.

I'd highly recommend this book in understanding traumatic disassociation(It's a heavy read though but very enlightening):

Library Genesis: Ulrich F. Lanius; Sandra L. Paulsen; Frank M. Corrigan - Neurobiology and Treatment of Traumatic Dissociation: Towards an Embodied Self

Library Genesis is a scientific community targeting collection of books on natural science disciplines and engineering.

libgen.is

 

[autumnal]

Hey people,
In the last year im feeling like my body is getting worse and worse because of my depression and low mood.
The biggest effect comes to my memory, its bad, and it becomes just worse, like for real, forggeting thing after few seconds or minutes.
Second is my coordination, cant concentrate and think deeply at the same time.
Also my vision (but thats also cause im spending a lot of time infront of my PC).
Apart from that I have a lot of mental problems like low mood most of the time, MDD aswell as PDD, Brain fog/Fybromyalgia , Dissociation and much more
I just dont have any real friends, im isolating myself, im feeling my body is super heavy and sometimes i just cant move myself it feels so hard to do...

Anyone else had similar symptoms or feeling?
Anyone maybe can explain me more whats going on in my body? is this a damage?

'Brain damage' usually implies an external physical cause (such as trauma or lack of oxygen) and a relative permanence. I'd say your symptoms are more likely due to the mental conditions you mention. Mental illness doesn't just have the typical affects on mood and behaviour, it can also affect things like memory and concentration. As can the side-effects of many prescription medications. This all means they your symptoms are most likely not permanent, and would reduce once you get those conditions properly treated and under control.

However, obviously, to get a proper idea you would need to see a doctor and probably get a referral to see a specialist and undergo medical imaging to rule out 'brain damage' conclusively.

 

[BridgeJumper]

Years of alcohol and drug abuse + severe mentall illness wrecked my brain, my cognitive abilities dropped so hard honestly.
Im so dumb. I mean like, critically dumb - everything needs to be repeated to me a few tmes before I understand
Have trouble remembering anything,constantly loosing things in my room. writing or asking the same thing over and over again, brain fog issues etc.

Im pretty sure the MRI I had done showed actual physical damage