Venting I think i get it now..

[HannahB]

Everyone says if your suicidal talk about it. Tell a partner or a friend maybe even a councilor. Well I have, a lot. It's always the same response. Avoidance. See they ask you to tell them because the idea of suicide scares them. But telling them does ease their fears just like telling your hubby about your ex doesnt help him with insecurities. So I ask myself why am I telling them? Why does it matter to me? Well because I want this to suck less. I want to explain it in a way that when I do die itll be ok. I want a happy ending to my story..... but thays just it. My story is a sad story that's why I'm here. That's why I find myself telling my partner and others. But heres the thing sad stories dont have happy endings. That's not what makes them worth reading. And so I now understand... I cant make my suicide not suck I cant make it happy and ok because it's a sad story. I have to accept it as such.

 

[SinisterKid]

How do you or any of us know that death is not the happy ending we all seek? Life may have been a sad experience, who is to say death will be the same? My own experience tells me that death will not be what we expect, its not to be feared, its not "THE END".

But I have had a lot of years to learn to accept dying, so its probably easier for me to spout crap about it.

 

[Flume]

I also have experience with telling tons of people. It's baffling how dumb people are, how fucking stunned they become when this comes up. You are not alone in this, not alone with having tons of bad talks. You can read my post "The only one that saw me for who I was" if you want, might help just a tiny little bit.

I'm not ok right now, but if things get easier in the future I'm open to talk more about this if you want.

 

[Backwood_tilt]

But heres the thing sad stories dont have happy endings. That's not what makes them worth reading. And so I now understand... I cant make my suicide not suck I cant make it happy and ok because it's a sad story. I have to accept it as such.

This was my major realization that tipped me into CTB territory. Its just one long sad, tragic story, and for once i get to have authorship over the ending. That is a great feeling.

 

[GinaIsReady]

Wouldn't you think that people would be kinder hearted when you talk to them about suicide? I don't think most people are comfortable talking about it because they see it as so extreme then don't know how to handle such a conversation. Or sometimes they see us as attention seeking. We're so used to talking about it. So grateful for this forum.

 

[Not_Quite_Dead_Yet]

I don't think most people are comfortable talking about it because they see it as so extreme then don't know how to handle such a conversation. Or sometimes they see us as attention seeking. We're so used to talking about it. So grateful for this forum.

I have found people just don't want to hear about it and treat you like Typhoid Mary if you try to even bring up the topic.

 

[JustVisiting]

yes, you get it. no one actually wants to talk about it. it's much too taboo of a subject.

gosh, i'm so glad to have found SS. it's incredibly valuable and validating.

 

[iki]

Everyone says if your suicidal talk about it. Tell a partner or a friend maybe even a councilor. Well I have, a lot. It's always the same response. Avoidance. See they ask you to tell them because the idea of suicide scares them. But telling them does ease their fears just like telling your hubby about your ex doesnt help him with insecurities. So I ask myself why am I telling them? Why does it matter to me? Well because I want this to suck less. I want to explain it in a way that when I do die itll be ok. I want a happy ending to my story..... but thays just it. My story is a sad story that's why I'm here. That's why I find myself telling my partner and others. But heres the thing sad stories dont have happy endings. That's not what makes them worth reading. And so I now understand... I cant make my suicide not suck I cant make it happy and ok because it's a sad story. I have to accept it as such.

You shouldn't tell them. In the best case they'll pity you

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Also I find I bc e I've tried to talk about it the relationship is never the same. Ruins a level of closeness or whatever. I gave up a bit ago tryna to talk to people about it in the rl.

 

[Moonicide]

Some people don't know how to comfort or understand those that are suffering when they aren't in the same boat. Talking about being suicidal can drive people away, because just the thought of losing someone can create a rift. Sometimes it's downright too much for people. Unfortunately, I have been too much for people in the past. Being suicidal and severely mentally ill can weigh people down so much and impact others in our lives. It has ruined many of my friendships and relationships... It's really hard to accept that. Even so, we all deserve to be heard. We deserve to have someone in our lives that will try to understand us and won't leave when things get so hard. No one should be alone in this, and the thought that we are so alone and that's what brought us here to SS breaks my heart.

Sending my love and support to everyone that has been battling this storm for so long.

 

[S1mpleme]

Everyone says if your suicidal talk about it. Tell a partner or a friend maybe even a councilor. Well I have, a lot. It's always the same response. Avoidance. See they ask you to tell them because the idea of suicide scares them. But telling them does ease their fears just like telling your hubby about your ex doesnt help him with insecurities. So I ask myself why am I telling them? Why does it matter to me? Well because I want this to suck less. I want to explain it in a way that when I do die itll be ok. I want a happy ending to my story..... but thays just it. My story is a sad story that's why I'm here. That's why I find myself telling my partner and others. But heres the thing sad stories dont have happy endings. That's not what makes them worth reading. And so I now understand... I cant make my suicide not suck I cant make it happy and ok because it's a sad story. I have to accept it as such.

This is not happy or unhappy ending, just ending. Yes, they will be sad, but you won't belong to this world anymore.