Venting i think ctb is beautiful

[maskbro]

i dont know if im going insane, but it's just seems like a peaceful (not physically) and powerful move. its your own way of dealing with everything, and showing everyone what it's like to live like you through feelings of aftermath. some may experience really stressful things through life, and there is no other way of showing it to people you know than ctb.
it has its own beauty in a way.
my first thoughts about ctb appeared when i was 12, and it become really drastically more obscure and intense later. now im 18, and it seems like im replacing some other person, and i can help others only with ctb since nothing else works, and i tried everything. my severe mental illness is also really hard to deal with.

i had several attempts already, so i experienced a lot.
the feeling when you die, this feeling after someone "helps" you from doing it.
its all so powerful and i want it back again.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

CTB itself cannot be negative or bad feeling because all creatures will die naturally sooner or later. In my opinion the actual process of dieing isn't disturbing or painful or inconvenient. It's the methoda being availabe to ctb that make it difficult, painful and agonizing up to some point.

 

[Unbelonging]

I agree, I think it's a good thing to be able to have power over your own life and your suffering, and to be able to stop the pain if it ever becomes too much to handle. We'll all die eventually, and I think it's beautiful to have control over your future and choose how you'll go. I also think it makes life more beautiful too, because without the option of ctb, life becomes a burden and a chore that you're forced to do, but with the option of ctb, if you choose to live, it's because you want to, not because you're forced to, so you will be happier with life

 

[FuneralCry]

I do see so much beauty in permanently escaping from all the suffering and finally being free from this existence for all eternity, to me there is certainly nothing more ideal than non-existence, I see existing as being something so incredibly dreadful and harmful, only death could ever bring me relief.

I just think that if methods like Nembutal were legalised then the process of suicide itself would truly be beautiful, the problem lies in how other people wish to force us to suffer endlessly until we die anyway. But I do see suicide as being self care as it's taking control over this existence we were so cruelly burdened with, preventing unnecessary suffering in the process.

 

[love_peep]

I remember when I was lying on the tracks in front of an approaching train it was night moon and moonlight it was romantic I was lying in headphones and listening to my favorite track, but unfortunately the instinct of self-preservation took over and I didn't die then

 

[Aizwrath]

i dont know if im going insane, but it's just seems like a peaceful (not physically) and powerful move.

Suicide is such a reassuring concept for me. Achieving it will (usually) always be within our control, an unconditional means of escape from this cruel reality. You're not insane, there is definitely beauty to be found within it.