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ijustwantout
My wish is my username
- Jan 18, 2024
- 33
As the title said I survived. I posted a thread three days ago saying I would CTB at night. Everything was prepped, the rope, the setting, the anchor. It was perfect. I took sometime to make peace with myself and I thought I was ready and I did do it. It felt like everything was going smoothly but the for a second a sort of SI kicked in and I stood up ( my method was partial hanging). I don't know what happened. I was supposed to die. It felt like even death was rejecting me.
I want to say sorry to everyone who helped with words and information. This was the first time I felt like I belonged somewhere and I felt like someone when I was with all of you. I didn't post earlier because I was depressed. I couldn't eat nor drink. I just stayed in my room. Life is exhausting but I guess it's not my time yet. Again I'm sorry I disappointed everyone.
This is not the end, I will try to research and fina a better way to do it. Hopefully one that's too quick for my SI to catch up with. Thank you everyone. Cheers .
I want to say sorry to everyone who helped with words and information. This was the first time I felt like I belonged somewhere and I felt like someone when I was with all of you. I didn't post earlier because I was depressed. I couldn't eat nor drink. I just stayed in my room. Life is exhausting but I guess it's not my time yet. Again I'm sorry I disappointed everyone.
This is not the end, I will try to research and fina a better way to do it. Hopefully one that's too quick for my SI to catch up with. Thank you everyone. Cheers .