Venting I still feel lonely

[potatolover1_]

Hey, I havent been on here for a while but something i HAVE done is find more friends. Last time I vented about my gf and how I feel bad in my relationship, so ill post my update

After 1 year and a month we stopped being together in December and ive given it thought, the relationship wasn't so good and I dont think I recieved what i expected in a relationship. Shes now rly addicted to weed and wont stop smoking it so I guess I should be glad?

Anyway this is more about some other bs ik i post for myself mostly but I wanna make it at least a bit interesting if anyone decides to read. So, I found new friends, started going out with more ppl, left my old friend group, which consisted of people who found everything cringe and put my interests down.

This sounds nice but even when im surrounded by so many people and laugh and feel amazing when surrounded with them, when im alone I think of hurting/straight up killing myself because I realize without the others apart from me I am a nobody. I feel useless, dont do interesting things, am not the first option and yeah. I just wanted to throw this somewhere and considering my future goals this seemed like the place, thanks for reading this far if anyone did and I hope youre doing better than I am!! Love u guys

 

[scary]

That's a valid feeling, and one I relate to. It's even worse especially if you already have mental health issues/low self esteem for this feeling to occur. All of the "interesting things" about me is the media I consume and not really me, who even am I really? I'm sorry you have this mindset to begin with and that you still feel the need to be here, even if you're not planning on CTB and are just here to vent. Just know you're not alone here.

 

[potatolover1_]

That's a valid feeling, and one I relate to. It's even worse especially if you already have mental health issues/low self esteem for this feeling to occur. All of the "interesting things" about me is the media I consume and not really me, who even am I really? I'm sorry you have this mindset to begin with and that you still feel the need to be here, even if you're not planning on CTB and are just here to vent. Just know you're not alone here.

Thanks man, feels comforting knowing that other people feel this too and I appreciate that u read the whole rant :D