sometimes.sometimes
Student
- Jun 4, 2023
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My grandma showed me photos of my dad when he was a kid. She gave me some of the photos because I miss him a lot, and I want a picture that isn't his mugshot. I didn't take a huge look at them last night, so I decided to look at them thoroughly a couple of minutes ago.
It just feels weird. My father was a very awful man. I cannot see him looking at those photos where he is laughing, playing with his telescope, playing video games, at his seventh birthday party, celebrating his last day of kindergarten...
Even the worst people were kids once, and I hate that. It makes me feel bad for him. When I look at his mugshot, I just see him as a little kid.
I also feel bad because my grandma disowned my dad after she found out what he did. I don't know anymore. There is just a ton of guilt, and I hope I am making sense.
It just feels weird. My father was a very awful man. I cannot see him looking at those photos where he is laughing, playing with his telescope, playing video games, at his seventh birthday party, celebrating his last day of kindergarten...
Even the worst people were kids once, and I hate that. It makes me feel bad for him. When I look at his mugshot, I just see him as a little kid.
I also feel bad because my grandma disowned my dad after she found out what he did. I don't know anymore. There is just a ton of guilt, and I hope I am making sense.