Venting I saw mom

[ChaoticMind]

I saw my mom again, only in my dreams of course, she died in 2012, first time in s long time did i dream about her, she didnt look the same, but i knew it was her some how.. i could feel it.. i think she wanted to see me, she hugged me..i could feel her..but i couldnt smell her or hear her heart beat..didnt want to wake up, i didnt want to wake up in this failing body filled with blood sugar issues..and suffer i wanted to stay with her, and i knew she didnt want me to go to..she held on tightly. But eventually she let me go and..i woke..soon after..fuck..i hate it here. But im too much of a coward to end it.

 

[ForgottenAgain]

This post hit hard, can relate so much...my mother died 16 years ago and it was only a handful of times I dreamt about her. Time starts to erase her features in my mind...

I wish your dream had lasted longer, that hug is so magical, brings tears to my eyes... I'm sorry for your loss

 

[ChaoticMind]

This post hit hard, can relate so much...my mother died 16 years ago and it was only a handful of times I dreamt about her. Time starts to erase her features in my mind...

I wish your dream had lasted longer, that hug is so magical, brings tears to my eyes... I'm sorry for your loss

Thank you..im sorry for your loss as well. It was and still is hard unfortunately after she died my family fell apart, and i was used as an emotional punching bag, its a little better than it was but there are still times were they especially my dad take shit out on me. Im not hit or anything dont worry about that, but..emotional abuse i guess is still abuse and it took me a long time to realize that.

 

[ForgottenAgain]

Thank you..im sorry for your loss as well. It was and still is hard unfortunately after she died my family fell apart, and i was used as an emotional punching bag, its a little better than it was but there are still times were they especially my dad take shit out on me. Im not hit or anything dont worry about that, but..emotional abuse i guess is still abuse and it took me a long time to realize that.

Oh that's so horrible...emotional abuse is abuse yes, you shouldn't have to go through that at all...

The death of my mother also destroyed my family, I think losing a parent is so dangerous because of that.

I hope you're not abused much longer, hope you're not suffering too much...abuse can cause so much suffering...

Really wish all the best to you, your words resonated with me

 

[ChaoticMind]

I wish all the best for you as well.
I hopefully only have to deal with it for two more years.. pulling money together with my partner to get an apartment.

 

[Havnis]

i hate it here

I know the feeling, I don't usually dream. But I once dreamed about the deceased girl who I love, it was a short dream, and I woke up to a stupid thing that I can't remember what it was.

 

[Echo]

How lovely she came to you in a dream, if only it could've lasted longer. I am sorry for your loss

 

[ChaoticMind]

How lovely she came to you in a dream, if only it could've lasted longer. I am sorry for your loss

Thank you, it was nice, I wish it could of lasted forever.