jes7ter
Member
- Jul 27, 2023
- 8
i ruin every relationship i have
my friends are all wonderful people but i cant form a real connection with them
anytime i think i can finally be close to someone i just fuck it all up
no big fight, no mean words, im just suddenly unable to speak to them
i get tired of them and even though i try to maintain contact, i cant seem to make an effort to make a meaningful conversation
when it comes to online friendships the only advantage i have is being a girl (yeah), and the fact that i can pretend to be at least somewhat likeable
whats the point if eventually ill bore them and they will stop talking to me, if they havent decided on that already
deep inside i do care but i dont even feel anything about it anymore, i lost 2 irl friends the same way - we stopped talking to eachother, just like that, suddenly no contact
its my fault, it always is, and i just wish i didnt have to accept it
i cant pretend i deserve to have these people in my life, sometimes i just feel like cutting them all off, because its all going to fade out eventually, like it always does
i made a stupid mistake of showing too much affection towards a certain person and i just wish we had something more but i know if it doesnt work now it wont in the future
i dont want to lose them but i dont want to keep being close to them because the feeling of slowly losing them is worse than cutting them off right away
i know they probably wouldnt even mind if we stopped talking, at this point theyre blind if they believe we still should be friends, and tbf im not that important to them whatsoever
but although i know it wont get better between us i just cant bring myself to end it,
i just wish i could have what it takes to be a likeable person
my friends are all wonderful people but i cant form a real connection with them
anytime i think i can finally be close to someone i just fuck it all up
no big fight, no mean words, im just suddenly unable to speak to them
i get tired of them and even though i try to maintain contact, i cant seem to make an effort to make a meaningful conversation
when it comes to online friendships the only advantage i have is being a girl (yeah), and the fact that i can pretend to be at least somewhat likeable
whats the point if eventually ill bore them and they will stop talking to me, if they havent decided on that already
deep inside i do care but i dont even feel anything about it anymore, i lost 2 irl friends the same way - we stopped talking to eachother, just like that, suddenly no contact
its my fault, it always is, and i just wish i didnt have to accept it
i cant pretend i deserve to have these people in my life, sometimes i just feel like cutting them all off, because its all going to fade out eventually, like it always does
i made a stupid mistake of showing too much affection towards a certain person and i just wish we had something more but i know if it doesnt work now it wont in the future
i dont want to lose them but i dont want to keep being close to them because the feeling of slowly losing them is worse than cutting them off right away
i know they probably wouldnt even mind if we stopped talking, at this point theyre blind if they believe we still should be friends, and tbf im not that important to them whatsoever
but although i know it wont get better between us i just cant bring myself to end it,
i just wish i could have what it takes to be a likeable person
