I really want to go

[lkjhgfdsa1]

I really want to leave this place
If only I did not ruin everything, my life could have been so great
I feel so guilty towards my mom
I love her so much
But I pick fights with her all the time
So I can have another reason to ctb
i really wish I could have been a better daughter to her
But everything is too late already
I really ruined, completely destroyed, everything
For reasons I will not share publicly on this forum
But there is a situation that cannot be changed, no matter what, no matter how much money I have, or no matter how hard I try or turn my life around

… there is no going back, I don't want to go forward, only a way out

 

[sugarh1gh]

Whatever choice you make, you know people here will always support you.

 

[howlercoaster]

Hurting people we love is a shit. I don't think you did nothing of that cuz you wanted, but hope you find your way out soon, whatever be it.

 

[albstr1403]

same. dont want to hurt my mom but i feel like i really need to get out of here.

 

[DefinitelyReady]

I really want to leave this place
If only I did not ruin everything, my life could have been so great
I feel so guilty towards my mom
I love her so much
But I pick fights with her all the time
So I can have another reason to ctb
i really wish I could have been a better daughter to her
But everything is too late already
I really ruined, completely destroyed, everything
For reasons I will not share publicly on this forum
But there is a situation that cannot be changed, no matter what, no matter how much money I have, or no matter how hard I try or turn my life around

… there is no going back, I don't want to go forward, only a way out

Definitely can relate... It's haunting and every second of everyday is pain. No exaggeration. Even when you're distracted, you can still feel it. It's like being possessed.