I only live to be exploited

[dontletthembribeyou]

Most people believe that suicide should be prevented in all situations, regardless of how hopeless the suicidal person is. I feel that truly hopeless people such as myself are kept alive only to toil at low paying jobs until we die. If we are unable to enjoy life (especially if it's due to real, material conditions rather than just being imagined, as the MH industry would have you believe), we exist only so that labor can be extracted from us.

I've been thinking about this a lot lately. Objectively, I am better off dead. Just for my own sake - for various reasons I am inferior to everyone else, and there's really no reason to continue living because I know I'll continue to be pushed to the bottom of the hierarchy for the rest of my life. God knows I'll never achieve anything worthwhile or reach a comfortable standard of living once I'm fully on my own. I'm just not capable of the things other people are. Knowing that, it's cruel to expect me to continue living.

Yet all these forces around me are hellbent on keeping me alive (not me specifically, just suicidal people in general, but what I'm saying in this post doesn't apply to most other suicidal people). Mental health professionals try to delude me into thinking my life is salvageable, Google begs me to reconsider any time I search anything CTB related, the police would arrest me if they found me actively attempting, and everyone I know personally would go ballistic if they knew what I was planning. I'm sure pretty soon Palantir is going to find a way to report suicidal people directly to the US government so they can put us in work camps or some shit.

So why do they insist on keeping me alive if I'm never going to reach a bearable quality of life? I assume most individual people who are involved in this have relatively pure intentions, i. e. they have been led to believe that death (especially death by suicide) is inherently a bad thing. But I think they're encouraged to think this way for a more insidious reason: the owning and ruling classes need a permanent underclass of people to do the jobs that no one would do if they had a choice, like menial labor, fast food, or retail (and that is NOT to say that everyone who works these jobs is hopeless and better off dead, but that these jobs are the only options available for people who are). If every hopeless/better off dead person were to CTB right now, society would collapse without our support.

Sorry for the bad grammar. I hope I got my point across okay; this might be kind of incoherent because I'm tired and hungry rn AND my brain is fried from using the internet too much.

 

[itsgone2]

I've been thinking about this a lot lately. Objectively, I am better off dead. Just for my own sake - for various reasons I am inferior to everyone else, and there's really no reason to continue living

It's terrible you feel this way but I wish I had this foresight when I was your age. Instead I tried to have a normal life and it has blown up in my face.
Really I am sorry you feel this way. Hopefully things improve.
But ultimately what are you saying? That it's all meaningless? If so I agree. But then what? Just ctb? I would, gladly, if easy to do. But it's not, so are we just stuck?

 

[Greasyhair]

You raise good point with the permanent underclass. Future worries me because I think the elites will form new underclass out of those deplaced by AI and further bolster it by mass immigration. I predict that the small support systems that still exists to support the old underclass will be largely done away, and instead you will be offered corporatized euthanasia (and of course you will have to pay for the privilege.)

This way the elites get people to compete fiercely for the lowest job while not having to upkeep the support system.

 

[dontletthembribeyou]

It's terrible you feel this way but I wish I had this foresight when I was your age. Instead I tried to have a normal life and it has blown up in my face.
Really I am sorry you feel this way. Hopefully things improve.
But ultimately what are you saying? That it's all meaningless? If so I agree. But then what? Just ctb? I would, gladly, if easy to do. But it's not, so are we just stuck?

Sorry, I could have been more clear with the point I'm trying to make. I'm saying that most capitalist countries today make life incredibly difficult for people who are less fortunate (or in my case, people who had luck but squandered it), and it makes CTB even harder for these people because the upper classes need us alive to do menial labor while they get to enjoy their lives.

You raise good point with the permanent underclass. Future worries me because I think the elites will form new underclass out of those deplaced by AI and further bolster it by mass immigration. I predict that the small support systems that still exists to support the old underclass will be largely done away, and instead you will be offered corporatized euthanasia (and of course you will have to pay for the privilege.)

This way the elites get people to compete fiercely for the lowest job while not having to upkeep the support system.

I doubt they'll euthanize us. Who would flip their burgers? Who would clean their toilets?