I no longer have faith in this world

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Not too long ago, more like yesterday I know stupid, I made a dumb post about college and bullying. Sadly, I am one in not so many to have experienced it. Seeing how suicidal iw as in my college years due to horrible people and how the system never helped me, makes me feel like "damn, if college wasn't even good then I must be destined for shit" . I dont even look towards the future cause I know I will be abused over and over

Where I live there is a massive train system (care to guess?) I think when I feel super impulsive I might jump into train tracks, or maybe jump off a bridge and hit the water. Either one, but I'd rather die tbh

 

[maru.]

I dont even look towards the future cause I know I will be abused over and over

I mean, i can see why you would think like this, life hasn't been kind to you at all in this regard.
Still, we never know.
I suffered a lot of bullying when i was younger, especially as a small kid, it kept going even when i switched schools.
There was a girl that bullied me a lot in 4th grade
I told my teacher and she didn't give a fuck, cuz she didn't like me, and cuz i was a boy being bullied by a girl, so i had to "man up" or something i guess.
Eventually, at 5th grade, after switching schools again, it stopped, i haven't been bullied or excluded since.
When i was in 4th grade i also thought things would be like this forever, because it was all i knew, but i was wrong.
So yeah, i guess what i'm trying to say is, there isn't a 100% change that it will be like this forever.
As we grow, we naturally change environments all of the time, maybe when you finish college, your work environment will be a welcoming one.
If it isn't, quit and keep searching until you find one that is.
There are people who will make us unhappy, but there are also a lot of wonderful people out there, we just don't see it sometimes, it's not as obvious.
It's kind of like the news, it's much easier to focus on a terrorist attack or riots or whatever, no one will report a huge donation or a heartwarming event.
Ok, sometimes it happens, but it goes by in a flash, negative things, and people, just grab our attention more i think, especially if we're already depressed.

 

[SoIntoYou]

College and University will soon become a thing of the past. I think, I THINK, the future of jobing will be in-house training for jobs. Could be wrong. And yes, the future has never seemed so bleak. That's why I'm here, as a pillowman.

 

[_Minsk]

Not too long ago, more like yesterday I know stupid, I made a dumb post about college and bullying. Sadly, I am one in not so many to have experienced it. Seeing how suicidal iw as in my college years due to horrible people and how the system never helped me, makes me feel like "damn, if college wasn't even good then I must be destined for shit" . I dont even look towards the future cause I know I will be abused over and over

Where I live there is a massive train system (care to guess?) I think when I feel super impulsive I might jump into train tracks, or maybe jump off a bridge and hit the water. Either one, but I'd rather die tbh

this whole system is a piece of shi* and supports people being bullied and other stuffs, no one cares, you end up being bullied too for trying to do something when someone gets bullied.. people can be so nasty, ew..

 

[Bruces]

I don't really feel anything other than hatred for this world now!

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

this whole system is a piece of shi* and supports people being bullied and other stuffs, no one cares, you end up being bullied too for trying to do something when someone gets bullied.. people can be so nasty, ew..

100% right

 

[somniummalum]

I've read many of your threads now @DeathIsTheWayOut99, what comes to my mind is that I think it so fucking bullshit how life treats sensitive, good people like you. FUCK this I just want to hug you and tell you it's all going to be okay.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

Not too long ago, more like yesterday I know stupid, I made a dumb post about college and bullying.

Why was it a "dumb post?" I found it thoughtful, and it sparked some good conversation around the issue. Any post where you can express your feelings openly and help to "get it out" has value. Don't put yourself down. I'm glad you shared that with us. Keep sharing away. It's how we can understand and support each other.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

It's hard to have faith in the world when all you see from it is negatives. Faith is something that develops and thrives with reinforcement.