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Cheksome
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- Aug 4, 2024
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I've been fumbling through these last few months trying to find meaning and purpose, and while things have been bad I haven't been to the psych ward since so that's good atleast. The problem is that I always feel scared in some capacity, I always feel physically unsafe. My therapist says this might be related to trauma but I can't make it stop. It makes me wish I could stay in the psych ward forever. It makes me want to escape and go somewhere. I'm stuck living in my own head. It feels like panic that doens't subside.
I'm constantly scratching my body or itching to try and get this pain out. Sometimes I just do it as a form of stress relief. Right now is one of those times.
I feel like I'm going insane. I don't have active plans to ctb but I do have very intense visions sometimes.
I feel like this might be due to my hoarding, and that if I cut down or threw more stuff out then I'd feel freer and less cluttered both physically and mentally. It's certainly an interesting theory but I haven't had the energy to go about it. All my energy goes into panicking and wishful thinking.
I'm constantly scratching my body or itching to try and get this pain out. Sometimes I just do it as a form of stress relief. Right now is one of those times.
I feel like I'm going insane. I don't have active plans to ctb but I do have very intense visions sometimes.
I feel like this might be due to my hoarding, and that if I cut down or threw more stuff out then I'd feel freer and less cluttered both physically and mentally. It's certainly an interesting theory but I haven't had the energy to go about it. All my energy goes into panicking and wishful thinking.