I never asked to be alive. Did you?

[Neuromancer]

Im early-20s and soon, I'll finish my Accounting Degree. As a 'half-asian', it gives me lot of prestige with numbers, even Im not soo good at it.

I have a decent job at a Investment Fund, as i dreamed when I was 18yo.

My career seems brilliant in the future, but in deep inside of me, feel like I don't want absolutery nothing.

Never asked to be successful, never asked to be happy and.. never asked to be alive.

I don't see a point of still using the mask of "young man with potential", because.. I don't see a single point about being a man-human everyday.

Im looking for someone who feels the same like me.. Would love to chat.



Now, Im going back to my social responsability.....

Wish u all the best.

 

[sadlyexisting]

I feel exactly the same. I am successful in other people's eyes, studying medicine at a well-regarded university in my country and being the best in school.

People always said that they admire my learning skills; they said that I am lucky.

But I feel none of that. Of course, it's beautiful that I reached my childhood dream; many people wish to reach it, but still, I feel neither lucky, happy, nor skilled.

I would rather not be alive at all than have a "successful" life. I don't see this as a gift at all. I could be a world star, and I would still say I don't want to be alive.

In the end, everybody will just say to me how I could feel this way since I have almost everything; they just don't know how it feels when you feel like you have been born somewhere you never belonged to, and nothing will ever change that feeling. When I don't belong alive, no amount of success in the world can change that.

So if you need someone to talk to, just text me, I am always here.

 

[RedHates]

When my parents realized my older siblings were going to fail miserably in life, they put all of the pressure on me to be the saving grace of the family. They think I'm so smart and have so much potential but I don't. I cheated on all of my schoolwork to get them to shut up about me not doing as much as I should be but that just solidified their belief.

The worst part about this is my mom spent all of the money that was saved for me to go to college a long time ago. So I couldn't go even if I wanted to. I don't know what she expects me to do when I can't even further my education because of her.

They see such a bright future for me but I have never seen one for myself. for as long as I can remember, I have never been able to see myself getting a job or even finishing high school. I literally couldn't even imagine it. Part of me thinks there isn't a future to be had and that's why I cant imagine it.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

It's weird! I wish I had that opportunities now in my age (and I'm more than double your age). I wouldn't be here at all I guess.

Really, life is so unfair and cruel and this world out there is so hostile.

 

[FuneralCry]

I could personally never see any point to existing, it's truly something so unappealing and undesirable to me, I see existence as being a burden, I've never wished to be here. I just wish there was acceptance towards the fact that not everyone wants to endure existence, continuing to exist should be seen as a personal choice rather than an obligation.