i need to talk to someone, please

[ghostspace]

anyone in an okay headspace? I'm sorry, don't want to bother anyone, I just don't want to be alone right now

 

[HighwayToHell]

Yo sup

 

[MsMaudlin]

I'm here ❤

 

[Oyoy]

I am in the same boat.

 

[TheLastSacrifice]

Another to join you. I'm here as well.

 

[Deathbydemo]

I'm here also. Vent away to your hearts content.

 

[Lostandfound7]

Here...listening..

 

[LostAllHope7651]

Here too

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

I'm here to listen

 

[ghostspace]

i love you guys.

i think someone i was messaging ctb. she's not responding, her letters got all jumbled
i don't know what to do. i'm so heartbroken

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

Did she hint at all she was planning on ctbing today and what do you mean by jumbled?

 

[ghostspace]

she overdosed. she said she took the pills and then we messaged for a while. she gave me her number to call or text and I was trying to because I didn't want her to be alone. but we're in different countries and I had to use WhatsApp and just when I got it to work she stopped answering
her last message was 58 minutes ago, she took the pills about an hour before that i think. jumbled like keysmashing, like she was losing coordination

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

Oh I am so sorry. We are here if you need to express your loss. I would wait till tomorrow to made an affirmative conclusion but know we are here for you. Don't be afraid to cry. Crying helps. And don't be afraid to cry ugly

 

[MsMaudlin]

How upsetting for you. She might just be asleep x

 

[Oyoy]

It means a lot that you were there for her.

 

[ghostspace]

I'm crying. I'm being so...I don't know. I know she wanted to go, but it's such a painful way to die, if she is, and I feel awful for not figuring out the texting fast enough

we didn't know each other well, I just care so much. about all of you, I don't want anyone to be in pain and I'm scared that she is. no one here deserves to be in pain

 

[Banquo501]

Do you know what kind of pills she took?

 

[Deathbydemo]

I am so sorry. It's possible she isn't gone yet so please try to be calm and rational, she may just be sleeping or perhaps she has been found and is getting help? If not, then I am truly sorry.

 

[ghostspace]

lithium, a lot of it. and she didn't have a tolerance because she wasn't taking it for a while.

I know she could be okay,
it's the uncertainty that's wrecking me

 

[TheLastSacrifice]

Ye

she overdosed. she said she took the pills and then we messaged for a while. she gave me her number to call or text and I was trying to because I didn't want her to be alone. but we're in different countries and I had to use WhatsApp and just when I got it to work she stopped answering
her last message was 58 minutes ago, she took the pills about an hour before that i think. jumbled like keysmashing, like she was losing coordination

This is so terrible. I am sorry. I did not understand these long distance attachments at first but now after 3 months on here I too have someone I care about like that. Love even. I am afraid of this phenomenon. But we are here because we don't want to live so we must prepare to lose those we befriend on here. But I can never be prepared to lose a friend.
Hang in there. Cry. Talk. Idk what to do.

 

[ghostspace]

thank you for being here. i'm sorry for being like this, I don't know if im being stupid or not

it's not death, it's just pain that I'm scared about. it's upsetting to imagine someone I've talked to suffering like that

idk what I'd do without this site, i really don't

 

[Banquo501]

You don't need to be sorry, this must be really upsetting for you.

 

[ghostspace]

thank you for understanding. i really can't express how grateful i am for the support here.

i'm going to try and get ready for bed and be with my cats. i'll keep you guys updated. she wanted me to document it for her, just to let people know she'd left us, i think. but I'm still hoping she'll message or text me

 

[Anon2662]

thank you for understanding. i really can't express how grateful i am for the support here.

i'm going to try and get ready for bed and be with my cats. i'll keep you guys updated. she wanted me to document it for her, just to let people know she'd left us, i think. but I'm still hoping she'll message or text me

Cats will make you feel slightly better. Mine certainly do! Think it says a lot about you that you're so upset. Try not to feel bad about the messaging. I'm sure they'll understand :)

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

thank you for being here. i'm sorry for being like this, I don't know if im being stupid or not

it's not death, it's just pain that I'm scared about. it's upsetting to imagine someone I've talked to suffering like that

idk what I'd do without this site, i really don't

Do not apologize. You have the right to be worried. Think of it this way, if she is in pain she soon won't be. She won't experience pain ever again if she really did OD. I hate pain in other people and I know you must be internally tearing yourself apart. It's hard to lose a friend, someone whom you love. We are here for you and just get those emotions out. Bottling up things will make them so much worse. Scream if you need to. My thoughts are with you and your friend. Im sending so many hugs and so much love in you and your friends way

 

[Soul]

I hope she's okay. (((Hugs)))
You get some good rest, okay? x

 

[ghostspace]

hugs to all of you. thank you, I can breathe a bit better now and I'm with my soft cats.

I'm going to try and get some sleep. I have my phone alerts turned up really loud just in case

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

I'm crying. I'm being so...I don't know. I know she wanted to go, but it's such a painful way to die, if she is, and I feel awful for not figuring out the texting fast enough

we didn't know each other well, I just care so much. about all of you, I don't want anyone to be in pain and I'm scared that she is. no one here deserves to be in pain

Oh, this is a tough one. But just yet, you don't have enough information to go on. That makes it even harder.

First, several things might have happened she may have passed on, she may be getting help - in which case you also likely will not hear from her for a few days, or she may be sleeping it off.

If she's got help, she's headed for the hospital and calling you is not going to be the priority. Getting her well, and likely admitted for a while, will be.

If it's any consolation, it's not that easy to OD on Lithium, especially all at once. Most ODs happen to patients who have been taking too large a dose over an extended period of time. (And trust me, I have LOTS of experience with Lithium!)

Right now, it's time to take good care of yourself. You are likely to experience that moment of loss of contact more than once as your brain tries to work it out. Try to let the pictures flow through your brain and then let them go.

It's a good idea to cuddle up and be warm and cats are always a good plan.

We are here if you need us, no matter the hour. There is always someone around, so let us know if you need anything.

To cheer you a bit, I am sending along a picture of one of my cats. His name is Checkers and he is a right goofy ball of fur. He loves to cuddle with hoomans.



Wishing you peace and warmth.

 

[TheLastSacrifice]

You

thank you for being here. i'm sorry for being like this, I don't know if im being stupid or not

it's not death, it's just pain that I'm scared about. it's upsetting to imagine someone I've talked to suffering like that

idk what I'd do without this site, i really don't

You aren't being stupid.

 

[MsMaudlin]

Your emotions are absolutely valid, never feel you need to apologise.
I hope you got some rest with your cats.
Love and peace ❤