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johntee23
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- Jan 31, 2021
- 33
Does anyone feel when they wake in the morning that they need to CTB before getting up as the thought of another day in Hell is so unbearable? I do. My doctor was asking me yesterday if I was researching into means of suicide. It's odd that they ask. As if you're going to say and get yourself taken away to be locked up. The one thing research does lead to is less rather than more options. Potential for failure and pain seem pretty much what crosses things off the list for me. So, hanging, jumping off cliffs and deliberate car crashes into walls have gone by the wayside. I do retain hanging as a plan somewhere near Z. It would be difficult to avoid survival instinct though. My favoured method and I've not seen it before would be a massive IV overdose of heroin. I know that's not possible for a number of reasons. Where would I find a dealer. Who'd prepare the drug. Does it have to be readied directly before use? How much heroin would you have to snort or ingest for lethality.
As it is CTB remains a fantasy And nothing more. Another day in Hell awaits.
As it is CTB remains a fantasy And nothing more. Another day in Hell awaits.