I need to distract myself. No I need to kill myself

[Surai]

I cant keep trying to distract myself like this. I cant keep putting it away. Itll destroy me if Im not carefull. When will it End, Always an ending and beginning to this shit. It keeps happening again all over again and again and again, I just need to distract myself so I wont have to think of it. I wont have to ponder it Anymore, I wont have to even think, I wont even have to, I wont even be able, I wont. It'll all be over, It'll all be done, Ill finally get good rest.

 

[landslide2]

im sorry you are suffering and certainly can empathize.
it is frustrating when looking for distraction itself feels like work and often feels fruitless.

 

[jepe24]

I feel your suffering immensely

 

[FuneralCry]

I just wish to rest as well, I'm certainly so tired of suffering in this existence, I hope that you find the peace you search for.