Help I need them to hate me

[Ijustneeditalltostop]

I need to ctb so bad as soon as possible but i have couple of ppl who's going to be really hurt when im gone (my boyfriend, my little sister)
So my only way is to make them hate me.. I don't know what to do or how to ask.. It's gonna hurt me so freakin bad seeing them mad at me or something but i have to do it for their sake.
They both love me so much and could do anything for me. My boyfriend yesterday told me that if something ever happens to me he won't be able to keep on moving on with life. My sister tells me she loves me and whenever i tell her im going somewhere even for one day starts crying and saying she wants me with her.
I know they love me but i don't love me or love my life.. I really really can't live anymore and im in pain 24/7.. Please if someone has any idea how to make them hate me, tell me..

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

Aww thats just sad..

 

[Deleted member 14573]

I'm so sorry you're hurting :(

One thing we have to accept when we make this decision is that it will hurt the people who love us, no matter how much we try to soften the blow.

I can imagine your loved ones might feel a lot of guilt if you ctb after an argument.

Unfortunately there isn't a way around this.

 

[Ijustneeditalltostop]

I'm so sorry you're hurting :(

One thing we have to accept when we make this decision is that it will hurt the people who love us, no matter how much we try to soften the blow.

I can imagine your loved ones might feel a lot of guilt if you ctb after an argument.

Unfortunately there isn't a way around this.

Im just so scared the follow my steps.. I need them to live happily

 

[Cioran]

Unfortunately, I too must leave my family and my mother. It is hard for me just as it is for you. It seems that no rational thought can prevent me from going through with it without thinking about the consequences for them and feeling guilty..It is natural since we care about them. But it stops us. Either we do it or we don't. I hope to be able to do it tonight.
Make sure you leave a nice note to them at least and possibly explain that you don't want to hurt them but etc. It could make you feel better.

 

[SpottedPanda]

Even if you succeeded, it's likely people would just say you were acting out of character, and still feel upset. Even when someone passes who 'wasn't the person they used to be,' you still feel bad because it's a person you once loved. Plus, after the grieving period, I'd like people to be able to remember the good times, without hindrance or confusion.

 

[Ijustneeditalltostop]

Unfortunately, I too must leave my family and my mother. It is hard for me just as it is for you. It seems that no rational thought can prevent me from going through with it without thinking about the consequences for them and feeling guilty..It is natural since we care about them. But it stops us. Either we do it or we don't. I hope to be able to do it tonight.
Make sure you leave a nice note to them at least and possibly explain that you don't want to hurt them but etc. It could make you feel better.

Thank you
I hope we find peace soon

Even if you succeeded, it's likely people would just say you were acting out of character, and still feel upset. Even when someone passes who 'wasn't the person they used to be,' you still feel bad because it's a person you once loved. Plus, after the grieving period, I'd like people to be able to remember the good times, without hindrance or confusion.

Yeah it sucks.. Ig I'll just leave notes or record a video for them..
Thanks tho

 

[Anonymoussn]

I dont think that would ease them of their grief unfortunately. Whatever my brother did, I would think that he would apologise for it eventually, and if he died I would think that chance had been taken away, and feel more hurt that he died before we got to make up.

It's going to affect your loved ones either way if you decide to CTB. Making them hate you isnt going to make that any better. I'm sorry.

 

[Ijustneeditalltostop]

Update(if that even matters) :
I just texted him, told him that im gonna die, he tried his best still trying
Also of course i broke up with him
I'll record a video for my sister tonight
(I'll make a goodbye thread)

 

[Cioran]

Update(if that even matters) :
I just texted him, told him that im gonna die, he tried his best still trying
Also of course i broke up with him
I'll record a video for my sister tonight
(I'll make a goodbye thread)

Good luck. I'll write a note tonight, too. I hope you are successful.

 

[schopenh]

I don't think that making them hate you is going to be a good solution, all that hate will presumably disappear when you're gone and they'll even feel guilty for it. What will probably be more succesful is leaving a note that expresses your feelings and hopes for them that they can move on.

 

[Ijustneeditalltostop]

I don't think that making them hate you is going to be a good solution, all that hate will presumably disappear when you're gone and they'll even feel guilty for it. What will probably be more succesful is leaving a note that expresses your feelings and hopes for them that they can move on.

Yeah ig that's what im gonna do
Thank you

Good luck. I'll write a note tonight, too. I hope you are successful.

Good luck for you too
I hope it goes well with you

 

[rhiino]

Don't make them hate you, that only makes it worse as they will not really hate you that fast but only be upset and angry at you, but still love you. When you are gone they will feel guilty for being angry at you, they might think that caused you to suicide.

I am in the same boat like you. I have a brother who loves me more than anything and a loving mother and father. I will hurt them so much by suiciding, but I also hurt them by staying alive.

Leaving a video for them is a good idea, I plan on doing the same.

 

[Intractabe]

I need to ctb so bad as soon as possible but i have couple of ppl who's going to be really hurt when im gone (my boyfriend, my little sister)
So my only way is to make them hate me.. I don't know what to do or how to ask.. It's gonna hurt me so freakin bad seeing them mad at me or something but i have to do it for their sake.
They both love me so much and could do anything for me. My boyfriend yesterday told me that if something ever happens to me he won't be able to keep on moving on with life. My sister tells me she loves me and whenever i tell her im going somewhere even for one day starts crying and saying she wants me with her.
I know they love me but i don't love me or love my life.. I really really can't live anymore and im in pain 24/7.. Please if someone has any idea how to make them hate me, tell me..

Hating you isn't going to help. It will just make the grieving process more confusing and complicated. It won't make it hurt less at all. Spare yourself the anguish of seeing them hate you, and spare them having to wonder for the rest of their lives why you would want them to.

 

[Brokenwithbpd]

Unfortunately, I too must leave my family and my mother. It is hard for me just as it is for you. It seems that no rational thought can prevent me from going through with it without thinking about the consequences for them and feeling guilty..It is natural since we care about them. But it stops us. Either we do it or we don't. I hope to be able to do it tonight.
Make sure you leave a nice note to them at least and possibly explain that you don't want to hurt them but etc. It could make you feel better.

I too am in the same position with my mother and I guess my husband too