I need someone who understands how much Autism sucks

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I have autism and bipolar. My autism has been a struggle my entire life. Bright lights are painful, loud noises are painful, and I like being isolated away from people. When I'm around people I feel excluded or like I'm missing something that would make them want to talk to me. I try to suck up, but people notice that and don't like it. I've had no special interest I could dedicate my life to, and I've received no "perk" of being autistic. I've been weirdly obsessive my entire life and it ruins my life. I'm not a creative artist, and I'm not intelligent. I unfortunately didn't get my parent's genes for mathematics or art. This is the reason I want to ctb, because there's nothing to me. There's no talent or passion I have to dedicate myself to. I'm just stuck being an Autistic blob.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I have autism and I understand how much it sucks. In my case, I've been "blessed" with how I'm good at mathematics but, aside from that, autism has caused me nothing but disadvantages. It made my life difficult and it also makes me trying to ctb much more difficult. I hate being autistic, this is pure misery

 

[sximii]

I have autism and bpd. I guess autism made me smart and creative, I like that aspect but it's also really difficult to live with. Interacting with people is impossible. Normal sounds feel 10x louder for me. I hate the fact that I hate being touched if that makes sense. I definitely get it

 

[ALonelyFreak]

Yes I get it autism sucks. Unfortunately dedicating your life to your passion wouldn't necessarily fix it. For example art requires money. So yeah I'm sorry autism sucks. Also it makes people hates you because you don't understand stupid social norms.

 

[LostLily]

My brother has severe autism so he literally has the brain of a toddler and need help to go to the washroom. So the fact you can can write means you are better off than him

 

[yowai]

I have autism and bipolar. My autism has been a struggle my entire life. Bright lights are painful, loud noises are painful, and I like being isolated away from people. When I'm around people I feel excluded or like I'm missing something that would make them want to talk to me. I try to suck up, but people notice that and don't like it. I've had no special interest I could dedicate my life to, and I've received no "perk" of being autistic. I've been weirdly obsessive my entire life and it ruins my life. I'm not a creative artist, and I'm not intelligent. I unfortunately didn't get my parent's genes for mathematics or art. This is the reason I want to ctb, because there's nothing to me. There's no talent or passion I have to dedicate myself to. I'm just stuck being an Autistic blob.

Me too, I used to like drawing and maybe that was my special interest, I felt like it was the only way to express my torment and connect with people but then I lost the drive completely, maybe because of antidepressants but I'm afraid I'll be completely nonfunctional without them. So I have nothing that I could completely dedicate myself to. I'm on disability and stuck in the house which worsens my mental health but there's so little jobs that would fit me. Imagine I have a younger sister who's not autistic, has a talent for drawing and other stuff, is in university and already traveled a lot, and has good friends. It makes me suffer even more lol.

 

[blackpillhopeless]

My brother has severe autism so he literally has the brain of a toddler and need help to go to the washroom. So the fact you can can write means you are better off than him

I don't know about your brother, but in general if someone is enough mentally disabled that they aren't even aware of their problem, then they might suffer less than someone who has it 'less bad', but not bad enough so that they are fully aware of how bad they have it.