k75
L'appel du Vide
- Jun 27, 2019
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I'm very physically ill right now. It's made my suicidal urges kick into overdrive, and I really don't want that to be an option right now. I've been kind of trying to recover, and if I did anything right now it would be completely impulsive and not something I want. I just literally need the pain to go away.
I've had one constant headache since the 1st. Nothing makes it go away, and I've been to the ER three times.
I'm having problems with my stomach, and my doctors suspect I'm having a gastroparesis flare up. I can barely eat... I'm managing about 300 calories a day and little to drink. I throw up every day multiple times, and my whole stomach area is just so painful right now.
My back has also decided to join the party. It's my lower back and I can barely move. I don't think I hurt it; it just just started hurting one day. I thought it might be my bed because I've been sick and laying in it so much. But I can't even sit on my couch. And no one will prescribe me anything for the pain because it might interfere with my stomach.
I desperately need to keep going. Does anyone have any advice? I don't want to just randomly kill myself because I'm sick and hurting, but I'm afraid I might.
I've had one constant headache since the 1st. Nothing makes it go away, and I've been to the ER three times.
I'm having problems with my stomach, and my doctors suspect I'm having a gastroparesis flare up. I can barely eat... I'm managing about 300 calories a day and little to drink. I throw up every day multiple times, and my whole stomach area is just so painful right now.
My back has also decided to join the party. It's my lower back and I can barely move. I don't think I hurt it; it just just started hurting one day. I thought it might be my bed because I've been sick and laying in it so much. But I can't even sit on my couch. And no one will prescribe me anything for the pain because it might interfere with my stomach.
I desperately need to keep going. Does anyone have any advice? I don't want to just randomly kill myself because I'm sick and hurting, but I'm afraid I might.
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