I need peace

[Timetoleave]

I really need some help, I've had 2 failed attempts and the next one needs to work. I've lost my Son I don't want this life without him, well I don't have a life anymore I'm a wreck.This shouldn't have happened to him he had an amazing life ahead of him, I struggle every day. The pain is unbearable why should I have to suffer like this.

 

[JoeFailure]

So sorry to hear. I hate that you have to suffer like that, especially when it sounds like you had an awesome son.

Hopefully someone can help you with some methods if that is your choice. I'm hurting so bad I can't even focus on all these methods with "N" and procedures with it and all that stuff.

 

[Bedlamb]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. Life isn't fair. How can we help?

 

[Timetoleave]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. Life isn't fair. How can we help?

I've overdosed on sleeping pills twice, tried hanging so many times it's impossible, I just don't know how to do this without help, I'm not going into hospital again , why should we have to suffer like this My purpose in life has gone now, he was only 21 he was perfect.

So sorry to hear. I hate that you have to suffer like that, especially when it sounds like you had an awesome son.

Hopefully someone can help you with some methods if that is your choice. I'm hurting so bad I can't even focus on all these methods with "N" and procedures with it and all that stuff.

Thank you, he was awesome and still is, I can't get my head round why this is happening and never will. Nobody should have to suffer like this when people could just go peacefully.

 

[Bedlamb]

Have you seen the SN (Sodium Nitrite) megathread or the N (Nembutal) megathread? Most modern sleeping pills are non lethal

 

[Timetoleave]

How do I know where to trust to buy this from In the ok?

How do I know where to trust to buy this from In the ok?

Sorry in the UK

 

[Bedlamb]

The only reliable source of N at the moment is "A". You can find his email in the PPH. https://drive.google.com/drive/mobile/folders/1-2NX0jVOjCrOJycMsy3KLXHMSGL3MSnV

I don't know where else sells SN apart from Loudwolf and I don't know if they ship to the UK.

 

[soda_pressed]

Is A someone on the dark web? and will I need to provide a reason why I want N?

 

[headinghome]

I've overdosed on sleeping pills twice, tried hanging so many times it's impossible, I just don't know how to do this without help, I'm not going into hospital again , why should we have to suffer like this My purpose in life has gone now, he was only 21 he was perfect.

Thank you, he was awesome and still is, I can't get my head round why this is happening and never will. Nobody should have to suffer like this when people could just go peacefully.

sorry for your suffering.... if you die there will be no one to keep his memory alive… Would he want you to die? Maybe just try to get by one day at a time… Go to a grief support group… Don't be alone tell your friends that you really need their support right now…

 

[Cevapcici]

Sorry for your loss...
As suggested above, if you have aesthetic concerns about your death , you can opt for a peaceful option like SN or N.

 

[Timetoleave]

sorry for your suffering.... if you die there will be no one to keep his memory alive… Would he want you to die? Maybe just try to get by one day at a time… Go to a grief support group… Don't be alone tell your friends that you really need their support right now…

There's plenty of people to keep his memory alive, he is so loved. I can't live in this pain, no support of anyone will ever take the pain away, I'm living in hell. I know you're only trying to help and thank you but I can't do this.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Is A someone on the dark web? and will I need to provide a reason why I want N?

No, just use protonmail to write to him.

 

[Allpainnogain]

So sorry to hear. I hate that you have to suffer like that, especially when it sounds like you had an awesome son.

Hopefully someone can help you with some methods if that is your choice. I'm hurting so bad I can't even focus on all these methods with "N" and procedures with it and all that stuff.

Omg I feel exactly like that too

 

[JadedGray]

The only reliable source of N at the moment is "A". You can find his email in the PPH. https://drive.google.com/drive/mobile/folders/1-2NX0jVOjCrOJycMsy3KLXHMSGL3MSnV

I don't know where else sells SN apart from Loudwolf and I don't know if they ship to the UK.

I contacted them and they said they do internationally ship SN but only on ebay. Unfortunately, there isn't any listing on there right now. They said they would update it, but they didn't say when.

 

[Littleone]

I really need some help, I've had 2 failed attempts and the next one needs to work. I've lost my Son I don't want this life without him, well I don't have a life anymore I'm a wreck.This shouldn't have happened to him he had an amazing life ahead of him, I struggle every day. The pain is unbearable why should I have to suffer like this.

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm aware of how the loss of a beloved one can provoke that you lose the will to live.
Do you have a partner to share the grief with?
Best wishes.