I need help

[Shishi167]

I feel hopeless lost hurt and I just don't know what do to anymore. I'm living a life I don't want to and I'm forced to keep living cause I don't wanna hurt the people who hurt me and I can't get away I cut myself to have some sort of control when I feel like I have none there's something about seeing the blood dripping down my arms that brings me ease and I just hoping maybe one day I'll get the balls yo cut to deep

 

[akrasia]

I'm sorry that you're in so much pain. I think you're feeling apathy. I'm sorry that you have to resort to self harm for the pain you're feeling. I was in your shoe once, Im still am. Although it's nice to think about going deeper, it does nothing but brings scars. You might have to get stitches if you went that far. My arm is filled with scars and I can't wear short-sleeves outside anymore.
I wish you well