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My heart bleeds for you as I always think about how bad the homeless have it. I'm on the east coast too so I know how cold it's been now that the fall is here. Thank god you have a friend with a place for the moment. I'm sorry I can't help further, I dont know of any places for free.
Thank you but I'm getting evicted at the end of the month. So the worst months to be outside. I'd rather have been homeless during the summer months. Also my friend does things to trigger me. Everything triggers me . I actually should've had a place by now. I was working with an advocate and case manager for almost a year. I was told it's take about six months. And they kept delaying and submitted my application the day before the deadline and because the pages weren't in order they had to resubmit. But it was rejected because of the submission date. And they resubmitted three weeks after they initially rejected me. Meanwhile I have another homeless person their contact info and got a one bedroom within two months. And they have the nerves to say how incredibly patient I am. I am at my limit. I've been saying I'm hanging off a cliff holding onto a thread. Oh and this person "claims" he can't work because of noise issues when he sleep but it's not every night. He said he plays with his kids everyday and when I asked what else he does, no mention about trying to get a PT job even working for like Postmates with flexible hours. He gets the priority. And hes a creep. Yes i am bitter right now because I've been diagnosed with severe OCD, MDD, GAD, PTSD, trauma, mild OCPD, emotion dyregulation, panic disorder, BPD, AGORAPHOBIA and mysophobia. I might have one more but at this point I can't keep track. I've done therapy and meds. My ex dumped me because I was a burden. My life is falling apart. I became disabled when my parents died and I don't qualify for disability because I had to take time off from work to take care of my father. I've been hospitalized 5 times, doctors ridiculing me and threatening me, and therapists ghosting on me. I couldn't save my parents' belongibgs and now all my stuff would be auctioned off. I experience nausea, pain in my eyes from ulcer, double vision, blind spots, tmj, foot pain, meltdowns, hyperventilating, panic attacks, depersonalization, insomnia, I don't trust myself likey eyes and memory, all mt past assaults are constantly attacking me like flooding in my brain, dizzy, lightheaded, loss of appetite, and a bunch more everything I do becomes a compulsion. My fear is making mistakes, forgetting, dropping and losing things especially sentimental items, so erotibg this is a trigger in itself and compulsion to write everything. I've tried self erp which is the gold standard treatment for OCD, meds but that's like a bandaid on a deeply infected stab wound that needs stitches, I. Constantly told just get over it or i just need a hug or I was able to do things before vut you don't tell a leg amputee that they were able to walk before so walk. And OCD being misunderstood I tell the. You don't say "I'm so cancer" because you coughed and people get offended. And the therapy available is like telling a cancer patient to get treated by a general practitioner. I've tried art therapy, psychotherapy, act, dbt, CBT, and others. But it doesn't help anx there's just so much I can do especially with my phobia of becoming the victim of nonconsensual pornography. I'm still processing from my past assaults, I don't want to feel anymore violated. Had the residential treatment facility accept me six years ago when everyone, therapists and specialists told me that's what I need, then I wouldn't have been where I am now. But no they rejected me because I needed to try different therapies and different level outpatient care. I became homebound/bedridden after my parents died. I really needed it. Now I qualify but reject me because I can't afford them. Medicare could've paid fpr one of the facilities but ofcourse I didn't qualify, another location wants me to pay one months stay and get treatment before I can apply for financial assistance but I wouldn't be needing it if i can. I don't get it. I even said people who need this level of care can't really work, I can't he the only one with no family so how do they afford and they ghost on me. There's just so much I can do on my own. Some i did came back much worse which made my insomnia worse. On a bad night I wake up every 45mibs-hour. On a good night every 3hours. Another location wants me to pay the evaluation fee which is non refundable and only qualify if seeing interns is enough. But I've already had that. I'm so tired.
And I just wanted to get better and work and chase my dreams and passion. It sucks knowing what your purpose in life is when you can't do anything.
My heart bleeds for you as I always think about how bad the homeless have it. I'm on the east coast too so I know how cold it's been now that the fall is here. Thank god you have a friend with a place for the moment. I'm sorry I can't help further, I dont know of any places for free.
Thank you but I'm getting evicted at the end of the month. So the worst months to be outside. I'd rather have been homeless during the summer months. Also my friend does things to trigger me. Everything triggers me . I actually should've had a place by now. I was working with an advocate and case manager for almost a year. I was told it's take about six months. And they kept delaying and submitted my application the day before the deadline and because the pages weren't in order they had to resubmit. But it was rejected because of the submission date. And they resubmitted three weeks after they initially rejected me. Meanwhile I have another homeless person their contact info and got a one bedroom within two months. And they have the nerves to say how incredibly patient I am. I am at my limit. I've been saying I'm hanging off a cliff holding onto a thread. Oh and this person "claims" he can't work because of noise issues when he sleep but it's not every night. He said he plays with his kids everyday and when I asked what else he does, no mention about trying to get a PT job even working for like Postmates with flexible hours. He gets the priority. And hes a creep. Yes i am bitter right now because I've been diagnosed with severe OCD, MDD, GAD, PTSD, trauma, mild OCPD, emotion dyregulation, panic disorder, BPD, AGORAPHOBIA and mysophobia. I might have one more but at this point I can't keep track. I've done therapy and meds. My ex dumped me because I was a burden. My life is falling apart. I became disabled when my parents died and I don't qualify for disability because I had to take time off from work to take care of my father. I've been hospitalized 5 times, doctors ridiculing me and threatening me, and therapists ghosting on me. I couldn't save my parents' belongibgs and now all my stuff would be auctioned off. I experience nausea, pain in my eyes from ulcer, double vision, blind spots, tmj, foot pain, meltdowns, hyperventilating, panic attacks, depersonalization, insomnia, I don't trust myself likey eyes and memory, all mt past assaults are constantly attacking me like flooding in my brain, dizzy, lightheaded, loss of appetite, and a bunch more everything I do becomes a compulsion. My fear is making mistakes, forgetting, dropping and losing things especially sentimental items, so erotibg this is a trigger in itself and compulsion to write everything. I've tried self erp which is the gold standard treatment for OCD, meds but that's like a bandaid on a deeply infected stab wound that needs stitches, I. Constantly told just get over it or i just need a hug or I was able to do things before vut you don't tell a leg amputee that they were able to walk before so walk. And OCD being misunderstood I tell the. You don't say "I'm so cancer" because you coughed and people get offended. And the therapy available is like telling a cancer patient to get treated by a general practitioner. I've tried art therapy, psychotherapy, act, dbt, CBT, and others. But it doesn't help anx there's just so much I can do especially with my phobia of becoming the victim of nonconsensual pornography. I'm still processing from my past assaults, I don't want to feel anymore violated. Had the residential treatment facility accept me six years ago when everyone, therapists and specialists told me that's what I need, then I wouldn't have been where I am now. But no they rejected me because I needed to try different therapies and different level outpatient care. I became homebound/bedridden after my parents died. I really needed it. Now I qualify but reject me because I can't afford them. Medicare could've paid fpr one of the facilities but ofcourse I didn't qualify, another location wants me to pay one months stay and get treatment before I can apply for financial assistance but I wouldn't be needing it if i can. I don't get it. I even said people who need this level of care can't really work, I can't he the only one with no family so how do they afford and they ghost on me. There's just so much I can do on my own. Some i did came back much worse which made my insomnia worse. On a bad night I wake up every 45mibs-hour. On a good night every 3hours. Another location wants me to pay the evaluation fee which is non refundable and only qualify if seeing interns is enough. But I've already had that. I'm so tired.
And I just wanted to get better and work and chase my dreams and passion. It sucks knowing what your purpose in life is when you can't do anything.
I'm sorry it was long and disorganized. My phone crashed a few times and loud noises and my friend triggers me and I become dizzy and disoriented.
