I must have been a terrible person in my past life to get this unlucky with this one.

[Emptied_soul]

This is a thought i've had many times, but if karma is actually real I feel like was a terrible person in my past life and this is why i'm so miserable now, like i'm serving sentence for all the crimes I made and it feels like god is teaching me a lesson by giving me a life of torture and pain.

I believe i'm not alone with this thought since i've seen many people thinking about this same thing before. But if this is my punishment, i don't want it, i just want to be free from it and i'm sorry if i did harm anyone in my past life. I've already learned my lesson, and i know that maybe by saying "sorry god" or asking for forgiveness in this forum might not help but i really need to pour all my heart out and vent.

Everytime things are somewhat possitive is like i get reminded that I should suffer instead of enjoying things since i'm being punished by everything bad I made, i'm tired of this sentence and i don't know if I can take it any longer.

 

[bigdog]

Yeah men I feel you

 

[Rational man]

Even if we could prove reincarnation, what you say suggests another possible renewal of life after this life. To be honest, i think karma does exist in this life but it us who sow the seeds for possible consequences later on. In no way are you to blame for your pain in this life. Your perception of punishment also suggests an omnipresent overseer which also cannot be proven scientifically. Now the pain you describe is being replicated by millions of people across the world i think in part due to parents conditioned expectations, dysfunctional love of children and the very dark nature of global circumstances currently been experienced by humankind. Add to this the human invention called ' religion ', im not surprised so many of us hold onto guilt and blame and regret. So dont blame self, just dont. Dont go there, never, ever.

 

[ThisIsLife]

I don't believe in reincarnation but i can relate to "Everytime things are somewhat possitive is like i get reminded that I should suffer instead of enjoying things".

What we call karma is definitely not a powerful invisible entity jumping from a "past life" to make this one miserable, i picture it more like a sort of wind blowing to your face because you're going the wrong direction. Sometimes it's just coincidence, the universe has its implicit rules that's for sure.
Having said that, i sincerely believe most people see life and death from the wrong perspective. Most think we come from nothingness and go to nothingness when we die, others that we go to a hell or a heaven and reincarnation is the new trend.

I believe, based on numerous persons who reported the details of their NDE, that we are spiritual entities that have to experience life through a human body and that we go back "home" when we die. The reason why we have to experience life through a limited "vessel" such as the human body and why we have to experience feelings, but mostly pain, is the true greater mystery.
It's not really surprising the "meaning of life" has given (and will continue to give) headaches to everyone, add on top of that the notion of free will and our minds bend.

But in a way, it makes sense that we were born without the ressources to understand why we're here if dying is the only way to have the answer.

 

[momdontcryplease]

Ah this is how I feel too. The worst part is I'm so scared if I ctb I will be reincarnated into an even worse life. ughh

 

[leloyon]

I often think about this. Two famous monsters died days before I was born, I considered that maybe I was one of them. That's probably delusional though on my part.

 

[Kundalini Guy]

Suffering makes someone spiritually stronger more than happiness does. Sometimes your higher self/oversoul puts you through suffering just to evolve and become more powerful. It really is the definition of born to suffer, but pays off in later lifetimes.

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe that there could never be such a thing as past lives, life is just an unfortunate consequence of evolution where people suffer due to chance all through no fault of their own, there is no deeper purpose or meaning behind this, to me the idea of past lives is completely fictional. Life certainly is so futile and meaningless, life is just an endless cycle of suffering that sadly continues to repeat as new life is brought here and I do believe that in death everything will be forgotten about. But it is so horrible to me how there is so much endless torment in this world that never needed to exist.

 

[RedDoor]

I don't think that you should blame your self for the wrongs your past life could have done. Even if you've been a terrible in your past life, Your clearly a different person now. Hope life treats better soon.

 

[sserafim]

I often think about this. Two famous monsters died days before I was born, I considered that maybe I was one of them. That's probably delusional though on my part.

I heard the period between death and rebirth lasts 49 days tho, according to the Tibetan book of the dead.

 

[sserafim]

I wonder what kind of person I would've been to be cursed with Asperger's/autism, and on top of that, ADHD and social anxiety.