Gaga786
The Odds Are Never In My favour
- May 3, 2020
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According to my observations, the key to success is confidence in one's abilities. All of my successful peers are either arrogant or self-assured about their beliefs. My self-esteem was shattered as a result of neglect, bullying, and verbal abuse.There were times when I was dubbed "the school's failure." Everyone wanted to know my test results; they would steal my test paper during a break or loudly complain to the teacher that I hadn't done my homework.They thought it was amusing, and there was a general consensus that I would fail my class and have to repeat the school year, whereas all of my peers would pass and move up a grade. Knowing that no one liked me, including the teachers, and that I have absolutely no talent, I began to despise myself and convinced myself that I am completely useless. I felt subdued my entire life because I was singled out and teased out of all 90 students in my class. It became "trendy" to despise me as I was passed from one seat to the next because no one wanted to sit next to such a loser as me. Sitting alone in class and during break culminated into social anxiety. Now, I don't have any fundamentals or base to lean on, as I grow up and take a stand against this world- I feel helpless. School was the institution where I was supposed to learn all the basics needed for life. How can I ever obtain a job, give a interview, handle bills,drive, and travel? it makes zero sense to me. It might be best if I leave this world than continue.