Venting I might come clean to one of my friends

[guineapiglover8503]

I've considered this a lot and I don't want them to be surprised if I CTB. However, I am worried that he will snitch. I hope that whoever I tell isn't too upset and that they can move on if I do so.

Sorry that this is a bit brief, this is my first time on adderall to treat my ADHD in like 9 years and it is taking a bit for my brain to get used to it. My mind is finally quiet

 

[KillingPain267]

Be careful. Lot of rats out there! Speaking as someone who had coppers show up while I was sleeping. The po po's are the last people someone who is suicidal wants to talk to (unless they plan to ctb by cop, lol).

 

[cohomology]

The po po's are the last people someone who is suicidal wants to talk to (unless they plan to ctb by cop, lol).

Why do you say that?

 

[BlackEyedDog]

We like to think we can prepare people for when we ctb. The truth is u can never prepare your friends, family for something like this. It may very well cause more hurt because we told them we would, and they'll likely carry guilt wondering what they could've said or done. Leaving them partially stuck with these thoughts and feelings of guilt.

Then there is the possibility of people not being able to handle such thoughts and may withdraw from us. The other possibility being get you sectioned, committed to a psych ward out of worry, and against your will.

Why do you say that?

They mean you might get involuntarily sectioned to a psych ward, police literally coming to your door to escort you there.

 

[SVEN]

Entirely up to you … but I certainly wouldn't.

 

[DeadNotSleeping]

Yeah as others have aid I don't think it's a good idea. I thought a close friend and I could talk about stuff like that because she would often say she wanted to die. I told her how I Was actually considering it and it changed so much of our friendship for the worse.

 

[disabledlife]

These are projects that must be kept secret. I made the mistake of talking about it to a friend (a long time ago), because he had asked me what I was doing with my life. When I planned to commit assisted suicide in Switzerland, he deleted me from his friends on social networks, called me narrow-minded, thoughtless, etc., and finally, I ghosted him permanently and erased him from my existence!

Since then, everything has been kept secret!

Moreover, the nature of this forum is, precisely, anonymity.

Anonymity, because there are many more pro-lifers, including those around him, his friends, etc., in short, anyone, even those who say they are sincere, who say, supposedly, respect your choices, do not judge you, who turn their backs on this kind of project and try to do everything to block these projects, judge the person...!

You should always assume that not everyone is sincere, especially when undertaking such a project, including acquiring materials, products, finding a location, etc. You should ask these questions completely anonymously.

 

[Unspoken7612]

It's a good idea to talk about how you feel and be as open as you can.

That said, there are a couple of considerations:

- wanting to kill yourself is a big shock for people and they might not be able to cope with it

- it might lead to further questioning, but is very unlikely to lead to you being committed to a psych ward

You're lucky to have such good friends. Make sure you ease them into the idea by saying you have something important to tell them that might be difficult to hear.

 

[KillingPain267]

Why do you say that?

Because police have guns and come with threatening demeanors. A mentally vulnerable person wouldn't want to see them. They could at least send a psychologist specializing in calming down people instead of a literal armed force.

 

[TAW122]

This is exactly the struggle I had when I planned to CTB, and in the past I've thought about notes, but knowing how no matter what I say, people who already made up their minds won't likely change them and after 2020 or so, my stance on even leaving notes for survivors has changed from "leave a note" to "not leaving a note" due to just extra burdens in terms of energy, time, and resource. When/if I do actually CTB, I will just go through it (though of course if I do, I at least leave something for SaSu and formally announce my goodbye thread).

Also, to address the matter in this thread, yes there is also the risk of incarceration, unwanted probing and questioning into one's personal business and that is an unnecessary added burden that I would not want to have to deal with. Overall, it is just easier to keep it under the wraps and the only place I'd ever share my CTB ideation is on SaSu (even then, I'm careful with what I share as that could result in some lurkers and hidden pro-lifers connecting the dots...).

 

[AuroraB]

i wouldn't. those friends who promise to keep a secret could decide they can't handle keeping it.