I might be going blind but that could be okay anyways.

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Don't know if I'm going insane, but I might be okay with the fact that I could be in the process of going blind. I already have hyper sensitivity to noise from hearing damage and permanent ringing in my ears but there is a cure for blindness in the works right now. https://medicalxpress.com/news/2020-12-scientists-reverse-age-related-vision-loss.html Granted it's still 18 months from clinical trials, and that means it's probably 7-10 years from release. I might be able to make it a few more years before going blind though. I've already adapted my life to the point that all my hobbies I could still do if I was blind. I basically listen to music and videos all day, granted I'd need my families help to get to whatever I want to listen to, but it's doable. I have chronic tendinitis so video games were a no go for me anyways. Who knows, after 5-7 years of being blind and basically not using my hands at all they'd finally heal. I'd get social security for the blindness and it would be anywhere between 100,000-200,000 depending how long I'm blind for. My parents were already paying for 3 years of my college. As soon as the cure comes out I could go back to college, actually go to clubs and play video games, have fun again and then buy a house as soon as I get out.

If there was no cure for blindness coming out I'd say fuck it and drink my sn no matter how scared I was. But I don't know, this life might actually be doable for me. This could be incredibly stupid and as soon as I go blind I'll regret everything, which at times I'm sure I will, but it might not be the worst idea to stay alive. There might even be a cure for my hearing loss, sensitivity to noise and tinnitus by the time it's over too. This forums been a great place to vent for me, but I don't know how much longer I'll need it. I'll see how scared I get when/if I start losing my vision.

 

[FuneralCry]

Life can be cruel to us, and our bodies can torture us, but I guess there is always hope. At least if a cure came out you would appreciate having sight again. I have tinnitus and it would be great to finally get a cure for that. It must be hard to go through, I wish you the best.

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm sorry to hear this!
I'm not going blind but my sight has got really worse during the last 3 years!

I couldn't live without seeing. I might be deaf, be on a wheelchair and so on but lose my sight? No way! I need to read and watch stuff!!!

Wish you the best and send you lots of love and hugs from Argentina.

Matt

 

[Kattt]

me too!! I lost 60% from internal chicken pox as a kid. Some returned with blind spots but over the past few months it's suddenly really deteriorated. I have ideas of why but won't bore you with them.
I would love a guide dog,but can barely keep myself alive so think it might be too much.
I have the biggest computer screen on the market with the dreaded magnifier. Luckily I live alone and am kinda anal about keeping things where they need to be,so it's ok unless someone comes in and moves things.

 

[everydayiloveyou]

Have you spoken to a doctor about this? What is your vision now, 20/100 or worse?

I'm low vision due to a rare congenital disorder, I also have myopia so every year my vision gets worse and it sucks! But with contacts I can live a fully independent life. Ask your doctor about accommodations and more information about your condition. Depending on what you have, there could be specific vision correction, meds, or surgery that will be much more functionally effective than risking clinical trials for the small chance at 20/20 vision. Eyes are complex and sometimes it's not even your eyeballs that are making you lose your vision, but your nervous system or vestibular system.

You may not be able to drive or anything but you could definitely work and enjoy your hobbies. Low-vision/blindness does not always equal full-on disability, sometimes accommodations like a guide dog or large text support are enough for full independence. Even people with no light perception can still work and be productive and enjoy so many things like nature, family, clubbing, video games, and media.

Talk to your doctor and see what your options are. Check out the low-vision/blind communities online and see what other people with your condition are doing to cope. There are tons of people who are in the process of losing their vision who will totally understand your situation and have much better advice!