darkandtwisty
Student
- Jul 10, 2024
- 107
I made a mistake and chose to make a big change. I moved out of my apartment, quit my job, and moved halfway across the country with a man who claimed to love me.... problem is he lied.
I was going to end it but said I'd give it one last chance. Now I have nothing and I am isolated. 1200 miles from home with an unfaithful piece of shit for a "boyfriend" of almost three years. His response to cheating: because I am a man and because I can.
So, now I no longer have access to my method and no funds to get a new one. Just 2000mg of primidone from a last attempt and 30mg of oxycodone. We all know attempting to OD is typically not effective, but I have nothing left to lose. Hell, maybe it'll get me away from him at least.
**Update**
Found my "boyfriend's" gun... it's an option I didn't want because after the abuse I endured in my marriage, I didn't want to go out violently if I could avoid it. After I confronted him, he hid the gun but left in the bedroom. Took the bullets out but put them in his nightstand. So he left both pieces in the room in a sad attempt to hide it. If he really gave a fuck, he would've kept it on his person. Or not cheated to begin with.
The whole thing is a joke to him and he said it's not even that big of a deal. He laughed at me and then fell asleep on the couch. Knowing he hurt me. I took a chance, a leap of faith and had hope because I felt safe with him. Now it's gone. I lost everything.... because I loved and trusted him.
I was going to end it but said I'd give it one last chance. Now I have nothing and I am isolated. 1200 miles from home with an unfaithful piece of shit for a "boyfriend" of almost three years. His response to cheating: because I am a man and because I can.
So, now I no longer have access to my method and no funds to get a new one. Just 2000mg of primidone from a last attempt and 30mg of oxycodone. We all know attempting to OD is typically not effective, but I have nothing left to lose. Hell, maybe it'll get me away from him at least.
**Update**
Found my "boyfriend's" gun... it's an option I didn't want because after the abuse I endured in my marriage, I didn't want to go out violently if I could avoid it. After I confronted him, he hid the gun but left in the bedroom. Took the bullets out but put them in his nightstand. So he left both pieces in the room in a sad attempt to hide it. If he really gave a fuck, he would've kept it on his person. Or not cheated to begin with.
The whole thing is a joke to him and he said it's not even that big of a deal. He laughed at me and then fell asleep on the couch. Knowing he hurt me. I took a chance, a leap of faith and had hope because I felt safe with him. Now it's gone. I lost everything.... because I loved and trusted him.
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