I lost my dad.

[Weightoftheworld]

My dad died Sunday morning. I would give anything in the world to trade places with him, he wasn't ready to go. His birthday is in less than two weeks. Seeing how much his death has affected those around me, how much it has crushed my soul.. I lost the only person in my life who has truly always been there for me and I didn't get to be there at the end, I didn't get to say goodbye, it was too sudden.
My dad was the only person I worried about if I CTB, aside from my kids. I miss him so much.
I still want to CTB one day though, which makes me feel selfish, considering how much of a toll his death has taken and will continue to take on me. If anything, I want to now more than ever.
I just don't know what to do without him, he's always been my rock.

 

[sinbound haibane]

I'm sorry to hear you're going through this. It's never easy to lose the person who's helping you hold on. I lost my father too earlier this year, although my circumstances are different and it didn't hit me nearly as hard. Anyway, I hope you will get what you need in these coming days.

 

[Good4Nothing]

I'm sorry.

 

[sourpink]

im so sorry. i can't imagine. my dad is my best friend and pretty much the only person im sticking around for. im so sorry, friend. sending love.

 

[SuicideBoys93]

My condolences to you and your family.

 

[SweetTangerine]

my deepest condolences to you, your family, and anyone who has been impacted by this. it is hard losing someone, especially someone who provided light in dark times. sending as much love as i possibly can.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

I am so sorry for your loss :(

 

[Ghost2211]

I'm sorry for your loss. Sending many hugs.

 

[Peachycherry]

I can't even imagine in how much pain you are, I'm so sorry. Losing someone dear causes so much suffering, especially when it's so sudden you can't prepare yourself. Know you have all my support. If I can add something, I would be lying if I said suicide isn't a bit selfish, since you leave people who care about you behind. But we all have our reasons, and I can understand how your dad's passing would contribute to that.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I'm sorry for your loss.

 

[AprilsBlessings]

I'm so sorry for your loss.
Sending you love & light.

 

[death137]

I'm sorry for your loss.

 

[PointlessStruggle]

Time is cruel. I remember when my great grandma died it was when I was across the country with my dad on vacation. I didnt see her in her final moments at all. My dad just told me and I was shocked. It would be 100x worse if it was my dad who had died. Not sure what I would do. Condolences.

 

[LooksAtMoonDog]

Sorry to hear you lost your dad, not an easy thing.