hawkoflight
🕊️Blessed king of longing
- Aug 12, 2024
- 28
Hi. I've been offline for a bit.
So. I tried overdosing on random ass pills that my family doesn't need anymore- whatever was left in the container, and looked like it might kill me.
It ended up being like 10 pills at most.
I don't know what I was thinking? I was having a psychotic episode (My reoccurring one of being a fallen angel for some godforsaken reason. I've never been any flavor of Christian.) and had "I need to go home" as my only thought.
It didn't kill me, clearly.
It just came right back out a few hours later. Peaceful "go to sleep and never wake up" death this was not. Of course in my sober state I know that's not even how successful overdoses work. But desperate and psychotic me is a damn idiot.
I was able to just play it off as a stomach flu and lay in bed in regret and throw up my guts for a day. Nothing bad has happened yet. I feel mostly fine. A little out of it but I always am after an episode. Drank some electrolyte water and all that.
Honestly I don't remember what I took? For all I know it was just a supplement or something.
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Don't be delusional kids, it isn't fun.
So. I tried overdosing on random ass pills that my family doesn't need anymore- whatever was left in the container, and looked like it might kill me.
It ended up being like 10 pills at most.
I don't know what I was thinking? I was having a psychotic episode (My reoccurring one of being a fallen angel for some godforsaken reason. I've never been any flavor of Christian.) and had "I need to go home" as my only thought.
It didn't kill me, clearly.
It just came right back out a few hours later. Peaceful "go to sleep and never wake up" death this was not. Of course in my sober state I know that's not even how successful overdoses work. But desperate and psychotic me is a damn idiot.
I was able to just play it off as a stomach flu and lay in bed in regret and throw up my guts for a day. Nothing bad has happened yet. I feel mostly fine. A little out of it but I always am after an episode. Drank some electrolyte water and all that.
Honestly I don't remember what I took? For all I know it was just a supplement or something.
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Don't be delusional kids, it isn't fun.
