I live in filth

[twatingthroughlife]

I hate myself so much. I live in filth and can't do anything about it. It's so embarrassing. I can't handle it. I just sobbed for thirty minutes just changing my sheets. I don't want to exist. Why is it so hard? It's so embarrassing. So embarrassing. I'm not a dirty person.

 

[lita-lassi]

if you set aside just 5 - 10 mins every evening (or whenever) to pick up around where you live youll be shocked how much it helps

 

[killme78]

I hate myself so much. I live in filth and can't do anything about it. It's so embarrassing. I can't handle it. I just sobbed for thirty minutes just changing my sheets. I don't want to exist. Why is it so hard? It's so embarrassing. So embarrassing. I'm not a dirty person.

i feel the same way sometimes. it helps me when i plan to clean beforehand. an example- i need to clean the kitchen soon so i'll give myself 10-20 minutes to enjoy whatever it is i want and then i'll do the chore i've been putting off doing. it might help it might not but i hope it helps

 

[ThisUnrest]

Being very depressed makes it extremely difficult, if not impossible, to keep things clean. Try to be patient with yourself. It doesnt make you a bad person. Take small steps if you can. It's very hard to keep up with things when you feel bad and mentally exhausted.

 

[Zegers]

Do you mean you live in a shack or is it just a dirty house? the latter has a solution

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

I hate myself so much. I live in filth and can't do anything about it. It's so embarrassing. I can't handle it. I just sobbed for thirty minutes just changing my sheets. I don't want to exist. Why is it so hard? It's so embarrassing. So embarrassing. I'm not a dirty person.

I am always being told I never clean, don't care about the house etc and it's true, I don't. One of my wishes is to have the tiniest most easily maintained space, a sparse room for that very reason. Then there is left to have to bother about looking after. If I could afford a cleaner I would have one.

 

[twatingthroughlife]

if you set aside just 5 - 10 mins every evening (or whenever) to pick up around where you live youll be shocked how much it helps

I honestly see no point in that anymore. It's just always so messy and I live in the tiniest place with four other people. The building is infested by roaches. The people at my home are hoarders. My supposed room is filled with stuff that we don't need. It's honestly a mess that I feel can't deal with in the slightest

i feel the same way sometimes. it helps me when i plan to clean beforehand. an example- i need to clean the kitchen soon so i'll give myself 10-20 minutes to enjoy whatever it is i want and then i'll do the chore i've been putting off doing. it might help it might not but i hope it helps

It's just really hard to do anything
I live in a shitty tiny apartment infested with roaches with four other people who are also hoarders. I don't wanna do anything about it anymore

I am always being told I never clean, don't care about the house etc and it's true, I don't. One of my wishes is to have the tiniest most easily maintained space, a sparse room for that very reason. Then there is left to have to bother about looking after. If I could afford a cleaner I would have one.

Lmao that's my same exact wish. I wanna live in a tiny apartment by myself and with only the necessary inside. Living in the opposite situation has been traumatizing for me.

 

[Mrpickles]

Have to second the comment about setting aside 5-10 mins a day to clean. Just set timer on the phone and do it. You may end up undoing some of it the next day. However, just that little bit of time changes your subconscious to be more mindful. It's tough in a depressive state. But being consistent in those 5-10 minutes, you will notice a change in as little as a week. I do it by habit now, don't need to set a timer. Even when I'm feeling low, I just do it without thinking. Our brains are surprisingly easy to train on little things like this.

 

[avoid]

The building is infested by roaches. The people at my home are hoarders. My supposed room is filled with stuff that we don't need.

Maybe start by throwing away everything you don't want to keep. Buy a roll of trash bags and start bagging up all the trash items. Trashing everything instead of cleaning is much easier and quicker, which means that you'll start to see your progress quite soon.

First, send out a message to your housemates that explains that you'll be throwing everything away unless they come to pick the items up. If they don't want to and still complain that you shouldn't throw away their stuff then counter that by moving everything out of your own room. You should have your own place in order even at the cost of making your hall a mess.

 

[twatingthroughlife]

Have to second the comment about setting aside 5-10 mins a day to clean. Just set timer on the phone and do it. You may end up undoing some of it the next day. However, just that little bit of time changes your subconscious to be more mindful. It's tough in a depressive state. But being consistent in those 5-10 minutes, you will notice a change in as little as a week. I do it by habit now, don't need to set a timer. Even when I'm feeling low, I just do it without thinking. Our brains are surprisingly easy to train on little things like this.

Yeah. It honestly wasn't that bad like 6 months ago, but I've been so depressed for so long now that I let it get bad. Thank you for the advice. I will try to get back on track. It's just really hard to do when you have to keep up other people's mess as well

 

[MBG]

Could be ADHD. Could be depression. Could be both. Could be something else.

Psychologist Jordan Peterson says you view your environment as made of either tools or obstacles. When your home environment is disorganized it makes everything an obstacle to accomplishing tasks and your home becomes a stress rather than a retreat from the stresses of life.

See a counselor. See a therapist. See a psychologist. See a psychiatrist. See a minister. See whoever you need to, but get help and get it now.

 

[Meditation guide]

It's depressing when your place is filthy and messy. I'm throwing out all kinds of stuff and giving away brand new computer equipment I've never used, throwing out huge trash bags of clothing, just getting rid of as much as I can/

 

[DesperateOne]

I hate myself so much. I live in filth and can't do anything about it. It's so embarrassing. I can't handle it. I just sobbed for thirty minutes just changing my sheets. I don't want to exist. Why is it so hard? It's so embarrassing. So embarrassing. I'm not a dirty person.

I feel you. I have long periods where clothes are laying on the ground and a bunch of dirty dishes and trash from snacks everywhere. Sometimes this lasts for months until mold comes in. When I get that rare spark of energy/motivation I try to clean up as much as I can. I'm a hikikomori (been one for around 3 years now) and it feels a lot better when you are in a clean environment. Don't become those guys that went viral on TikTok where its gotten so bad that cockroaches started crawling on their bed and walls haha.