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kitia973

kitia973

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[Includes deciptions of violence]

But I do not like when people try to be hypocritical about their desires. Sometimes I can sense that certain people wish to hurt me from a variety of reasons, but they always try to fake "politeness" in a passively aggressive way, although it is explicit in their actions that they do not harbor any good-willed thoughts towards me. It is very irritating, and I would much rather people just be upfront about their thoughts.

I enjoy being hurt, but it is not personal gratification. I simply enjoy the concept of pain, not sure if that makes sense. I don't think I'm a masochist, as I do not feel pleasure during the suffering, but rather a form of morbid curiosity. Sometimes I am able to project others' suffering onto myself, and vice versa. It is an interesting experience.

That is also one of the reasons I am alive right now. I have no desire for things to get "better". All that will lead to is tiredness with life. I had a fairly uninteresting childhood, and I never experienced true, devastating abuse when I was a kid. I wish to see what truly horrible experiences life will throw onto me. I wonder if I will be cut apart after being mutilated and violated then thrown into sewers to be eaten by maggots, if that was supposed to be my natural death.

I cannot think up of horrible ways of emotional torture, other than the ones seen commonly in life. I think physical torture constitutes as a form of emotional pain itself. Mental health starts to deteriorate very quickly in a state of chronic, extreme physical distress.

But it would be interesting to see. It is a perversion and morbid curiosity of mine. Just knowing that the possibility of endless pain and despair exists is enough to keep me grounded.

Strange post. I also realize it's quite strange.
 
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CallmeWill4719

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Sometimes I think you have to be a masochist to enjoy life. All the beatings one gets, you know? Might as well enjoy it. It's happening anyway.
 
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Me when I take a cold shower.
 
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|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
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Me when I take a cold shower.
Really? All I can think about when taking a cold shower is trying to win that fight over my sinful horniness...
 
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Really? All I can think about when taking a cold shower is trying to win that fight over my sinful horniness...
Horniness is sinful ? Who knew ... obviously only Jesters.
 
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Theres comfort in the darkness . My friends in the Occult are all about embracing their shadow side I admire
 
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