Thequietone
Student
- Dec 4, 2021
- 121
The thing is that I live on my own and have a job. I should have tried it in my teenage years and not as an adult. Now I know if I fail I will lose my apartment and my job and I would have no option to try it again because my parents would want me to move back to them. So my life would be much worse than now. My problem is that I don't wanna get better anymore, I want to get myself to finally do it and die. I thought about doing it next year, but I already said this last year to this year and wasn't ready yet. I just don't know what to do because I see a therapist and I talk a lot about what is going on but in the same time I know it is best for me to not exist anymore. I just wish I could go to exit and just get help to die but I have no illness. I feel like I'm in prison and I'm sentenced to live. Would have been so much better if my parents never created me......