I kinda like life, but it's just not for me

[Warlord's Pulse]

It's like when you see something that you acknowledge it's good, but still prefer to not use in any manner, for any reason
Personal examples: drawing looks cool, but it's not for me; boxe or other martial arts are cool, but I'm too slow and cumbersome, not for me; rpg games can be very amusing, but not for me, I will get bored for sure; the list goes on and on

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yeah- this makes absolute sense to me. Kite surfing looks cool but I don't have the fitness for it and I'm 100% clumsy enough to hurt myself. That wouldn't be fun. I'd more likely just humiliate myself and be absolutely terrified. Still, I can understand why it would be exhilerating. The same way, I can understand how it might be possible to enjoy life.

Personally, I feel a bit like I've painted myself into a corner with life. It was the best corner available but it would be hard to change now without ruining all the work I've already put in and if I walk across that wet paint, I'll just tread footprints everywhere new I walk. That's a bit how life has felt really. I have started again multiple times but, all the same problems just came along with me.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I personally think that life is bad but also that I have no interest in living through it either

 

[AnderDethsky]

I think many people are familiar with this,

I also think I wouldn't be against life if there weren't o lot of everywhere that would let me know that it would be better if I had never been born and that if my parents are an apple tree, then I'm just their rotten fruit.

Even the laws of nature hint that not every living organism is adapted for life. Natural selection confirms that not all organisms are destined to survive and reproduce, because when reproducing hereditary information, mutations will always occur, just as no more or less complex software will ever work without bugs, and someone's mutations will be useful for survival in the environment, and someone's will leave him no chance of this, despite all his efforts. And it's driving me confusion that life provides so many interesting things, so many opportunities to occupy yourself with something, to find something to your liking, and at the same time there is some kind of limit to everything, like some kind of certainty in something that each of us is unable to influence.

I would probably love to live in society, I would love to meet and interact with people, I would love to be an equal part of society, to have friends, a girlfriend, to receive attention and warmth from people and to share this with the world mutually.

And there is a very common opinion that each of us, any human, deserves all this, but as for me, I am ,it seems, not a
human..

maybe coz I am too ugly and defective /̵͇̿̿/'̿'̿ ̿ ̿̿ ̿̿ ̿̿(╥﹏╥)

Spoiler: just came to mind for my post's vibe

 

[Warlord's Pulse]

Yeah- this makes absolute sense to me. Kite surfing looks cool but I don't have the fitness for it and I'm 100% clumsy enough to hurt myself. That wouldn't be fun. I'd more likely just humiliate myself and be absolutely terrified. Still, I can understand why it would be exhilerating. The same way, I can understand how it might be possible to enjoy life.

Personally, I feel a bit like I've painted myself into a corner with life. It was the best corner available but it would be hard to change now without ruining all the work I've already put in and if I walk across that wet paint, I'll just tread footprints everywhere new I walk. That's a bit how life has felt really. I have started again multiple times but, all the same problems just came along with me.

Yeah, clumsy. I used the word "cumbersome", but I meant "clumsy", just forgot the right word lol

"I have started again multiple times" - very relatable. I tried a lot of different things, always feel empty

I think many people are familiar with this,

I also think I wouldn't be against life if there weren't o lot of everywhere that would let me know that it would be better if I had never been born and that if my parents are an apple tree, then I'm just their rotten fruit.

Even the laws of nature hint that not every living organism is adapted for life. Natural selection confirms that not all organisms are destined to survive and reproduce, because when reproducing hereditary information, mutations will always occur, just as no more or less complex software will ever work without bugs, and someone's mutations will be useful for survival in the environment, and someone's will leave him no chance of this, despite all his efforts. And it's driving me confusion that life provides so many interesting things, so many opportunities to occupy yourself with something, to find something to your liking, and at the same time there is some kind of limit to everything, like some kind of certainty in something that each of us is unable to influence.

I would probably love to live in society, I would love to meet and interact with people, I would love to be an equal part of society, to have friends, a girlfriend, to receive attention and warmth from people and to share this with the world mutually.

And there is a very common opinion that each of us, any human, deserves all this, but as for me, I am ,it seems, not a
human..

maybe coz I am too ugly and defective /̵͇̿̿/'̿'̿ ̿ ̿̿ ̿̿ ̿̿(╥﹏╥)

Spoiler: just came to mind for my post's vibe

Tbh, "natural selection" is a very misunderstood concept. It's a much more slow proccess than most think, so it has little to no influence in specific individual, or even an entire generation, especially human beings. Furthermore, the sheer randonness has a very important factor for individuals lives

 

[toxicjester]

I feel this so heavy. If my circumstances were right maybe this life would be okay. I guess I'm hoping in my next life things will be better, more than anything I want to fall asleep and wake up as a baby harp seal