Venting I keep waking up crying, nightmares, things are bad

[Deleted member 14386]

All the past few nights have been filled with nightmares, I try to hit the people but I can't, it's the sleep paralysis I'm almost sure. But it's driving me crazy. I think it's time and even though I said I probably wouldn't being ctb I can't see any other way out. I'm trying to get meto but my Doc's closed. But also it's near a family members birthday and I don't know what to do, I think I should wait another month or 2. but I reaaally want out. Every second of every day. It's just miserable

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

I feel sorry for you, its not fun to be in that situation. I either dont sleep for days, or have worst sleep filled with waking up every few minutes and nightmares. And being awake is even worse. Trying to hold onto something to stay alive seems barely possible at times like that,and every waking moment i wish to die.
I wish we wouldnt have to feel that but life chose not to spare us. I hope your existance can atleast be more bearable, hope it gets better