No1RegretsDying
do not demolish my right to independence!
- Apr 17, 2023
- 6
Oh, it's just such a shame.. I'm always severely suicidal and I just always swear I'm so close to killing myself - any second now I'll leap off that tower... Hang myself in that closet... Shoot myself with that gun.. but 7 years later, I'm still alive.. no part of me wants to live, nobody in my reality wants me to live.
It's just like, I keep telling people I want to die.. "this time, I'll really do it" and I'm still here. It's like I'm not the only person waiting for me to die; my lover, my friends, my family... It's all just a ticking time bomb of when I'll die and they won't have to deal with the thought of me anymore! I'm a net negative in their lives and they like to show it in every way.
It's just like, I keep telling people I want to die.. "this time, I'll really do it" and I'm still here. It's like I'm not the only person waiting for me to die; my lover, my friends, my family... It's all just a ticking time bomb of when I'll die and they won't have to deal with the thought of me anymore! I'm a net negative in their lives and they like to show it in every way.
