I just want to matter

[willitpass]

i'm sick of seeing all of my friends out with their closer friends. i'm sick of not getting invited to things. i'm sick of being people's last choice and being canceled on. i'm so fucking tired of never being texted first. i've learned that if i go a week never texting anyone first then i won't get a single fucking text. when quarantine isn't happening, if i don't start a conversation with anyone and i sit there in silence no one will come up to talk to me. it's like people only pay attention to me because i make them. i'm so tired of it. i just want to matter to someone. i want to belong somewhere. i want to feel like someone's life would be different if i wasn't here.

 

[KleinerWolf]

i'm sick of seeing all of my friends out with their closer friends. i'm sick of not getting invited to things. i'm sick of being people's last choice and being canceled on. i'm so fucking tired of never being texted first. i've learned that if i go a week never texting anyone first then i won't get a single fucking text. when quarantine isn't happening, if i don't start a conversation with anyone and i sit there in silence no one will come up to talk to me. it's like people only pay attention to me because i make them. i'm so tired of it. i just want to matter to someone. i want to belong somewhere. i want to feel like someone's life would be different if i wasn't here.

They probably get over each other quickly as well.
Since they think they are so popular.

 

[dibbydoo]

i'm sick of seeing all of my friends out with their closer friends. i'm sick of not getting invited to things. i'm sick of being people's last choice and being canceled on. i'm so fucking tired of never being texted first. i've learned that if i go a week never texting anyone first then i won't get a single fucking text. when quarantine isn't happening, if i don't start a conversation with anyone and i sit there in silence no one will come up to talk to me. it's like people only pay attention to me because i make them. i'm so tired of it. i just want to matter to someone. i want to belong somewhere. i want to feel like someone's life would be different if i wasn't here.

Hey!

The first thing you have to do is to Love Yourself first❤

Love yourself & you will stop seeking 'the first to be texted' - because you no longer need 'validation' that you are 'worthy.'

Something else to note, 'popularity' is no measure of how good a person is or how happy they are. In fact, many 'popular' people are deeply unhappy on the inside, and that's why they need the 'texts' & the 'invites' because it makes them feel loved.

Learn to Love Yourself willitpass, and there you will find the 'key' to true happiness

God Bless❤

 

[KleinerWolf]

Hey!

The first thing you have to do is to Love Yourself first❤

Love yourself & you will stop seeking 'the first to be texted' - because you no longer need 'validation' that you are 'worthy.'

Something else to note, 'popularity' is no measure of how good a person is or how happy they are. In fact, many 'popular' people are deeply unhappy on the inside, and that's why they need the 'texts' & the 'invites' because it makes them feel loved.

Learn to Love Yourself willitpass, and there you will find the 'key' to true happiness

God Bless❤

True Wisdom.
Well said.

 

[Sabriel]

I felt this post in my bones. Same for me, I feel ignored most of the time and I'm never anyone's favorite person in the world...besides my dog, she loves me unconditionally. Fuck everyone else though!

 

[willitpass]

I felt this post in my bones. Same for me, I feel ignored most of the time and I'm never anyone's favorite person in the world...besides my dog, she loves me unconditionally. Fuck everyone else though!

I'm sure this sounds really shallow, but society puts so much worth on how many friends you have and how often you go out that i'm just left feeling so worthless. I have cats though and they are fantastic. pets are so nice

 

[dibbydoo]

True Wisdom.
Well said.

Thanks, that's very kind

I felt this post in my bones. Same for me, I feel ignored most of the time and I'm never anyone's favorite person in the world...besides my dog, she loves me unconditionally. Fuck everyone else though!

Love your enemies❤

I'm sure this sounds really shallow, but society puts so much worth on how many friends you have and how often you go out that i'm just left feeling so worthless. I have cats though and they are fantastic. pets are so nice

You can't fool cats & dogs, they are a very good judge of a person heart

 

[Sabriel]

I think that's just the reality of it; it's society's value system and it's no wonder we feel like shit when we don't meet the status quo. Animals are so much more direct than human beings...at least I don't feel devalued and constantly wondering where I stand with them.

Idk, I think after awhile you discover a lot of those same "friends" who never initiate conversation aren't all that great either...I don't know whose leaderboard they're at the top of but it's not how I'd place the overall rankings for decent people.

 

[darkhorse256]

I used to think I would find the motivation to live if I mattered but it hasn't helped. If anything, knowing I matter makes me feel worse about CTB because I'll end up adversely affecting the people whom I matter to.