KleinerWolf
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- Apr 30, 2020
- 2,700
I don't know why I keep changing my mind.
if I go back to China my life is fucked anyway.
honestly the multiple times nasal swab COVID test to entre China isn't even worth it,
Like I go back for what?
All the teeth fixing and on top of that no hope to ever get out again for years.
fuck man I really wish my SN is here.
I keep changing my mind now in reality I know SN is better option to just be done with it.
I'm so done with what being a Chinese citizen entails for me.
I hate going back there more than I hate the uncertainty of successful death by suicide.
I don't know what will happen,
I can't find a reason to go back and I don't want to.
Surely suicide can't be that hard.
Maybe if my sn is here, it will be more practical to make such decision.
It's been 1 month and 3 days since it was shipped.
It wouldn't be so bad listening to music on my bed, losing consciousness and never wake up to my awful life.
if I go back to China my life is fucked anyway.
honestly the multiple times nasal swab COVID test to entre China isn't even worth it,
Like I go back for what?
All the teeth fixing and on top of that no hope to ever get out again for years.
fuck man I really wish my SN is here.
I keep changing my mind now in reality I know SN is better option to just be done with it.
I'm so done with what being a Chinese citizen entails for me.
I hate going back there more than I hate the uncertainty of successful death by suicide.
I don't know what will happen,
I can't find a reason to go back and I don't want to.
Surely suicide can't be that hard.
Maybe if my sn is here, it will be more practical to make such decision.
It's been 1 month and 3 days since it was shipped.
It wouldn't be so bad listening to music on my bed, losing consciousness and never wake up to my awful life.
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