Venting I just want to die – please, please, please

[whybother2002]

Everyday is hell. I hate myself, hate my parents. I lost everyrhing I was once proud of and quickly realized there's now nothing to like in me. I am unlikeable...the opposite actually, I am hateable. There's plenty of reasons to hate me, none to like. I just want to die. Nothing works. I really like my therapist but it seems like a long (years and years) process that might not even work (and probably won't). All I do is watch youtube and some streams (where I pretend to have friends) while I work. God, please kill me. I'm not religious but I truly love Jesus. I wish he would take me. This life is too much, I can't fix it anymore.

 

[sadsillygoose]

Everyday is hell. I hate myself, hate my parents. I lost everyrhing I was once proud of and quickly realized there's now nothing to like in me. I am unlikeable...the opposite actually, I am hateable. There's plenty of reasons to hate me, none to like. I just want to die. Nothing works. I really like my therapist but it seems like a long (years and years) process that might not even work (and probably won't). All I do is watch youtube and some streams (where I pretend to have friends) while I work. God, please kill me. I'm not religious but I truly love Jesus. I wish he would take me. This life is too much, I can't fix it anymore.

Literally my life. All I do the entire day is watch some random youtube videos about stuff that I don't care about. No matter how many breaks I try to take or I try to relax, but its never enough. I just wish existing wasn't this difficult.

 

[whybother2002]

All I do the entire day is watch some random youtube videos about stuff that I don't care about.

Yup. For me it's true crime slop, which I hate but the videos are long...

 

[cursedlife]

all I do is watch YouTube and my brain bombards me with mistakes I made in the past , I also want this to stop , I don't want to feel pain I'm 27 years old and already want my life to end

 

[whybother2002]

all I do is watch YouTube and my brain bombards me with mistakes I made in the past , I also want this to stop , I don't want to feel pain I'm 27 years old and already want my life to end

I feel you. I'm 23 and so tired.

 

[kuroshimi]

Pretty much it.

I myself feeling useless and just simply don't know what to do in life. I almost don't have strength to do anything and just wasting my time on my computer. Don't want to continue to exist that way.

 

[gasforme]

I just want to die as well

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

same i want to die

i also watch stupid meaningless youtube videos a dumb addiction . i hate it . i hate life and this evil world

 

[HangMan123]

Everyday is hell. I hate myself, hate my parents. I lost everyrhing I was once proud of and quickly realized there's now nothing to like in me. I am unlikeable...the opposite actually, I am hateable. There's plenty of reasons to hate me, none to like. I just want to die. Nothing works. I really like my therapist but it seems like a long (years and years) process that might not even work (and probably won't). All I do is watch youtube and some streams (where I pretend to have friends) while I work. God, please kill me. I'm not religious but I truly love Jesus. I wish he would take me. This life is too much, I can't fix it anymore.

Same. Nothing is stimulating anymore. I stare at a screen all day because staring at the ground would look odd, but it's all the same. It's so boring, and I can feel my brain dissolving, but what else am I to do? Not even video games or junk food brings me joy. I don't get hungry or thirsty, I'm always tired, I have zero motivation, and my cognition is slower than a snail. I hope one of these days I'll just evaporate into the air and this can all be over with.

 

[StoicPizza]

Every night I pray to die. Prayer doesn't work without action...

 

[Hollowillow]

I wish I could promise that it gets better, but it's the world that is shitty, not you. So all we can do is our best to make the shit river more bearable... Until our death. I like anime. But with chronic pain even watching it is hard...