so tired or manic
Arcanist
- Jun 12, 2020
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most nights I become very suicidal. days I feel okay and that everything will work out, but once the sun sets the dark side comes out. there's no way to live in continuous light. the constant fluctuations are nothing more than draining. even though there's some light in my life, there's still far too much dark to make up for the few moments of relief. especially with winter coming it's only going to get worse.
I'm not ready to go just yet because I can't guarantee anything I can do will work fast enough, but more than anything I just want this roller coaster to end.
I'm not ready to go just yet because I can't guarantee anything I can do will work fast enough, but more than anything I just want this roller coaster to end.