Wyldfyre4948
Waiting for my bus
- Jul 12, 2023
- 378
Just broke down in tears again because I'm sick of being alive. All I wanted to do was listen to some music and try and relax some. There's nothing left for me in this world and I don't want to wake up tomorrow. Several failed attempts at killing myself with ropes and ratchet straps have beat me down further. I have $35 to my name and that will be used to try and feed me for the next week. So sick of just going through the motions and trying to make others think I'm getting better. Don't have a car so I'm basically stuck in my apartment all the time completely alone. My SI has stopped me from hanging myself and I'd rather just take something and drift away. Nothing makes me feel anything anymore. Put something on the tv just for noise instead of actually watching whatever is on. Got a jar of gummies that I haven't touched in weeks because I have no interest. Nothing matters anymore.
I'm irreparably broken and just want to ctb already. Please someone point me in the right direction because I'm desperate and every day is just another waking nightmare.
I'm irreparably broken and just want to ctb already. Please someone point me in the right direction because I'm desperate and every day is just another waking nightmare.
